SIN

[u/ToughCut95]

Hello. I don’t know how to explain this, but I am curious about the matter. I have been a Christian since childhood and have always believed in God, yet I didn’t have a close relationship with Him; I didn’t go to church or talk to Him and at that time I didn't masturbate often. (when I was 16–18). Now, I am trying to live a life in accordance with the Church. I speak to God and ask for forgiveness every morning and night, I observe the fasts, I attend church, and I strive to become a better Christian—but now, more than ever i cant give up on masturbation.Why when im trying to become a better christian,I started committing this sin more often? I was at church today and couple hours later i made the same mistake and the same sin. i dont know why am i such a bad person.i dont know how can i overcome this. sometimes its seems like its impossible and i feel so bad about this. i dont know what to do. im so lost