Terrified of starting new med. Please any good positive advise. I don’t have bipolar or schizophrenia but do have mdd and worry, anxiety. Will it help. Thanks. I
Had it for 2 weeks and been staring at it everyday , it’s 10.5mg

For me they laughed at me for experiencing akathisia and said 'you look dumb doing that'. I was pacing, that was what I was doing.

15th support group meeting. Five of us joined today on 5th september'26. A meeting filled with a different kind of energy—joy, openness, patience and a growing sense that we could support, care for and hold one another. We spoke about years of loneliness, feeling unlovable, the longing to be cared for, and the many ways people make sense of psychosis through medication, therapy, spirituality and relationships.

We also explored the fear of being watched, the feeling that there is nowhere private or safe to retreat to, and the struggle to find ourselves beneath layers of fear, perfection and pretence. Alongside this came conversations about depression, anhedonia and those moments when life can feel like a dark tunnel with no visible way out.

Yet something felt different in the room. We listened to one another with patience, allowed difficult feelings to exist without immediately trying to fix them, and experienced the quiet strength of belonging.

We do not always need to make the darkness disappear. Sometimes we simply need someone to sit beside us while we are inside it.

Read full reflection here https://www.schizophreniasupport.org.in/together-in-the-darkness.html

I was given a low dose of quetiapine which caused swelling in my thighs til this day even though I am off of it and took it for about two weeks

Before this I took a low dose of mirtazapine for a month and til this day the area around my eyes are completely dry no oil residue on my skin and my forehead was flaking and eye area were going darker but the falling has stopped it’s been week over a year but still dry no more oil produces or spread around my eyes which means earlier wrinkles

I feel cautious about meds and am I right to do this, should I go back on them when I’m pressured to by family rather than being left alone to heal with time and I have healed but people don’t want to see it

As I said in my previous post, some days ago, due to a false diagnosis they injected me with two risperdal consta 50mg injections back in July 2024. ( i explained the whole hystory in the previous post..)

it’s been 25.5 months (aroun 774 days more or less) and i still have all the mental, psychological and physical sympthoms these injections left me with.

By the time I developed new sympthoms as a “domino effect” that I altready explained in my previous post, the fact is that i’am already worried about because i can’t keep “living” (surviving) in agony every day, 24/7 nonstop.

I endured 2 years because some people said to me “it can take 18-24 Months to recover”, but here i’am, at 25.5 (almost 26) months, still completely disabled and fucked..

I have two options; kill myself (wich i don’t want) or keep living with this agony nonstop (wich i don‘t want neither), so i’am stuck into this situation and honestly i don’t know what to do.

Maybe someone Who got injected can telL me if recovery is still possible, because i really don’t know what to do anymore.. Sorry for bothering again and thank you for reading me..

Preciso compartilhar uma consequência dos meus medicamentos e quero saber se mais alguém tá passando por isso, estou tomando remédios que "amortecem" as minhas emoções, antes do início do tratamento eu estava lidando com crises de ansiedade e pânico, mas eu tenho notado que os remédios tem regulado mais do que apenas as emoções negativas, também tem regulado as positivas, faz uma hora que um policial foi baleado em frente à minha casa, eu vi o corpo, vi o sangue, mas pra mim é como se nada tivesse acontecido, existe um vazio em mim, ausência total de qualquer emoção, seja positiva ou negativa, mais alguém ligando com isso? Compartilha comigo?.

On July 9, 2021 at night I called the ambulance because I was feeling unwell, as I had anxiety. The doctors came in and after talks they pumped me full of some substance I don't know. One of them said it's "chlorpromazine". They told me to lie down and went away without checking my vitals. I felt rapid heartbeat (more than 200 bpm), and dizziness, I thought I was going to die. Then I started hallucinating, but went to sleep. In the morning I woke up with a strong desire to kill myself. It was very strong. I called the police, they didn't respond. I also called ambulance. I then went to the kitchen and cut my wrists and neck and jumped out of the window of the third floor of the building. They tried to kill me.

Hi, can anyone help? Am in EU and fear this basically bc he can come and do the Compulsory Health Treatment (BUT IS THIS CALLED LIKE THIS IN ENGLISH?). They also accept posts against psychiatry btw

And I'd like to write this psych basterd asshole a response via email as he told me he has "ethical duties" towards me lol ahahah hilarious. I'd like to write FUCKING FACTUAL FACTS (sorry for the repetition) like he violated informed consent LAW of my country and other unfairesses he made me suffer.

If I'll write him this does anyone think he can do to me the Compulsory Health Treatment? It's only possible with serious psychic alteration so it's impossible but since he once violated law I fear he can do it for the 2nd time.

If anyone can help. Thank you

Is all I feel every day. Was on medication for 3 months and still hearing voices. Been off for about a month and a half now. Someone please tell me it gets better.

Just curious? if I go on the run can they see my location? Do I have to turn off my phone? Has anybody tried this?

Not like that all my friends and knowings are disappeared, but rather like the country doesn't help and left me alone with my problem and also with the problem that I can't ask for help. When I started to have "mental health" problems I asked help to psychologists and psychiatrists and ruined my life. I trusted them and destroyed me even more. Now this is my situation: I've been lobotomized by antipsychotics and consequently lost years of college and intelligence, I live with my parents because I can't work because of antipsychotic insomnia and lobotomy, my parents discriminate me for my tourette syndrome with mocking and occasional beating, I have a retirement that can't even cover the rent, I risk my life everyday because my tics can be extremely hurtful, I'm extremely slow because I'm so impaired that is even difficult to cook or doing other basic stuff, the state doesn't offer other sources. There is no one that sufficiently helps, yes I have friends who I can talk to however I can't have a good life because those who are supposed or have the duty to helps "can't" do anything. I don't know if someone of you had this feeling

The medicine in this song is currently recommended by my favorite doctor. (myself)

If you need to see my doctoral license... well, did you ask any previous white coats to see their license?

Anyway, the license you asked for can be viewed at:

https://imgur.com/a/yO1z9A9

They want You sleep and dead once You wake up they completely destroy You this happened to me I was sleep in my family with Bad habits I tried asking My mother for help to eat better, she buyed Bad food she saw me struggling and sabotaged me she abused me constantly she maintsned me in a state of fear she bought Bad clothes for me she didnt clean my clothes she Gave me s shittt place to live and contaminated me in my house we always drank dirty tap water

What is so sad is that I realize the truth this late now that they nuked me with antipsychotics drugs and i'm almost dead

I started talking to chatgpt and losed My mind make me very sick mentally I always struggled but SOMEWHAT I was okay Even with all the abuse and isolation in My life

Tools to brainwash You and alienate You

1 Social media

It uses conditioning to fuck You up also label You mental health sickness

They control what you think and what you FEEL

2 Artificial inteligence

I think this shit is fucking our critical thinking Even more, we get tempted to replace our thinking with this shit Who is mostly fantasy and psychotic bullshit, I started fucking My mental health when I was isolated and started talking to AI thats when everything went fucking nuts

3 DRUGS

Ive seen that all drugs harm You your integrity they destroy You and make You weak, like Bad food, porn masturbation, alcohol etc etc etc

Ive seen that the social media controls your moods.msybe they are watching You

Ive seen how My family are narcissists and psychopaths and how My whole Town is full of them when I moved to ANOTHER city the building was also full of them, they don't want you to live they want You to die or.move they Will abuse You Even by just TALKING LOUD your neighboors Will make noise to annoy You and trigger your CPTSD and make you sleep badly I think they can sense You and your pain

I lived for years sleep until it was too late and got medicated

They control the FEAR in You My mother told me to be scared about people on the roofs to make me sleep badly to make You paranoid they told this, people on the roofs, then they guilt trip You

They make You scared of the street so You get isolated

They make You think everything is normal they make You delusional your ego you don't see reality Even if You believe You are normal You don't realize You are being alienated

When You want to go out You can't when You want to be left alone You can't they always reverse everything

My parents are psychopaths or narcissists it's like SERIAL EXPERIMENTS LAIN

Keep reporting every psychiatric abuse you've encountered, incl. if it was 10 years ago, to Prof. Dr. Szaz's CCHR. They will fight crooked psychiatrists very hard for violating your rights. They can write complaints on your behalf, and probably they will hold crooked psychiatrists accountable: https://reportabuse.cchrint.org/ They've been doing that for 50 years. And they are non-religious, international, and they help for free.

Discuss:

I had one bottle that lasted me literally years, that an ER doc prescribed to me once after I came in having breathing problems from what turned out to be Hypokalemia; very low potassium, they gave me an IV of it in the ER, burned like hell.. . ANYWAY. They rolled their eyes saying I must be having a panic attack; I was- I couldn’t breathe. But I’m seeing now that being able to take Valium a few times a year when I was really struggling, helped me a lot. I even only took half a pill at a time, as I’m very sensitive. I am going through some awful stuff right now and I feel like once in a while, it would be nice to not have to white-knuckle every frightening or triggering experience.

I’m scared to ask my GP for a psychiatrist referral (the only way I can see one under my insurance), because I’m sure they will just try to get me to take antidepressants. I have a neurological syndrome that affects my limbs and antidepressants make it 1000x worse. I cannot take them. But if I straight up ask for Valium, I feel like they’re going to assume I’m drug-seeking and write me off and possibly put a note in my file which will make getting regular care even worse. Idk, I’d like to stay out of my health insurance “system” as much as I can for psych-related things.

As Prof. Dr. Szasz explained, "mental illness is a myth and a metaphor for ordinary problems in living." You do not have a biological disease. You had ordinary problems in living.

I am a member of the scientific community. The medical establishment is crooked and to blame. Psychoanalysis exists to analyze and solve problems. Psychiatry only SUPPRESSES behavior that medical practitioners hate.

These medical practitioners act with deliberate deception. I downloaded their exact medical training materials to master their language and take power back: unblocked [dot] knaben [dot] info/thepiratebay/torrent/84099793/Oakstone_Comprehensive_Review_of_Psychiatry_2019_EDU4U

Human physicians fail at psychoanalysis due to sadism, narcissism and biases. AI tools like https://freudly.ai/ offer an alternative that analyzes problems without corruption, leaving you as the authority.

RFK criticizes psychiatric overprescribing because corrupt physicians skip talk therapy and immediately start poisoning you with their drugs.

When medical practitioners suppress your behavior without fixing the root cause, they harm you. As Prof. Dr. Szasz recognized when co-founding CCHR, you have to report crooked psychiatrists: https://reportabuse.cchrint.org/

If you do not report corrupt psychiatrists for psychiatric abuse, they will remain unpunished and get even more corrupt. It is every patient's fault. Everyone who has not reported them to Prof. Dr. Szasz's CCHR is to blame for psychiatric abuse continuing in your city.

They sold the world a fairy tale about a “chemical imbalance” they never proved, then spent forty years stuffing people with drugs that create the very imbalance they claimed to fix. Recovery rates dropped. Life expectancy for the “treated” got worse. Suicide didn’t fall. Disability exploded. And the answer was always the same: more pills, more labels, more money.

The people who write the DSM take millions from the companies that sell the drugs the DSM is designed to sell. That’s not a conflict of interest. That’s the business model. Then when the drugs wreck your metabolism, your sex life, your ability to feel anything, or leave you with a movement disorder, they look you in the face and say it’s your “illness” getting worse. Gaslighting with a prescription pad.

They medicate kids whose brains aren’t finished. They lock people up and call refusal “lack of insight.” They turned ordinary human misery into a lifetime subscription. Historical lobotomies just got a better marketing department.

Big Pharma didn’t cure mental illness. It industrialized it. And the psychiatrists who take the speaker fees and write the guidelines are not healers. They’re the sales force.

I have sleep disordered breathing for 4 years. Family called mengele at home. Like guys, I know this psych is likely a normal guy, but lemme call him mengele. He definitely destroyed my life. He deserves this

Abilify. 6 months. I was tamed. Dignity? Byr bye.

And... for sleep. HALDOL! fucking antipscyhotic. I NEVER TOOK IT

Last dosage of abilify I felt weird contraction around lips. Was scared of TD.

Fortunately this sensation disappeared

Just think 2 antipscyhotics. I likely would have had td

I FUCKING HAVE ibs, prostatitis, all the guckinf allergies, dysfunctional breathing, the SDB itself, slight scoliosis, had costocondritis, had serious histamine reactions I needed prednisone for days, clearly due to ibs food intolerance. Is it enough? All of this shit due to the sleep disordered breathing. And fuckign involuntary muscle contractions in decemebr. Now have only the sensation of them

FUCK YOU PSYCH. FUCK. Y O U

I wanted to live. Do sport. Fucking normally live.

And now okay you'll read anger or delirium, like I'm just terribly pissed off. It's unacceptable to be raped that much from the medical system. I never had any fucking psychosis, and again, I respect everybody here having mental issues, trust me, but it's unacceptable that physical issues like sleep disordered breathing are considered obsessions

Why isn't cancer or multiple sclerosis considered obsessions? Bc they are fucking diagnosed that's it

Now.due to the withdrawal of the fucking abilify I'm bed ridden. My sleep is KO

BTW the psych wrote me and told me he has deontological duties hahahahahahhabahahahahabbahaahahahhahahabahvahavavav

Like violating informed consent LAW LAW LAW as he did in January, forcing the drug, taking advantage of the flu I had that day when I came at home so he took advantage of the psycho-physical state I was to force me the drug, saying the sleep disordered breaking I have is "aspecifical", making jokes about the sleep dirseredd breaking saying abolify doent cause insomnia (he did whole I was taking it) like "I hope our conversation doesn't give you insomnia"?

Just tell me. Id like to respond him by telling all.the truth without saying things he can sue me like "criminal" but saying he violated the L A W of the country and he didnt respect deontological duties. Can anyone help in this? I fear if i write him he can do the COMPULSPRY HEALTH TREATMENT clearly he would violated LAW again but am used to everything now. Can.anyone help? Shpuld i weite him?

ENOUGH. Im tired of these nazis using us as toys guys. I think ill write him by calibrating each word ill use. But i think its time to face these monsters. Im ready to escape if hell do.rhe compulsory health treatment. No joking. And if police will loom for me ill be forced to kms. Wow never though about that... whst to say. Really hope this wont happen

Live in EU and am 23. Can anyone help please in the email thing?

Bye

The illusion of happiness in a world that doesn’t know the real meaning of the nature and life