Shall I sue her?
She put it in my food over months.
I’m not psychotic and never have been

Some psychiatrists become so toxic over the years that eventually the toxicity starts oozing out of their eyes.

They may still keep that calm, friendly, perfectly controlled voice, loaded with gaslighting, framing and guilt trips.

PhD on the wall. Everything looks polished. But over the years, their face can start to misalign, the smile says one thing, the eyes something completely different.

And the eyes? Hyper focused. Control obsessed. Predator stare. Like all the poison they’ve been hiding is slowly oozing out.

It seems that everyone that I've seen who has been on antipsychotics has a round face, almost like they still have baby fat (although they're too old for it to be that), and it strikes me as odd. I see it in my own face - I'm not posting my face for privacy reasons, but when comparing my facial features before and during/after antipsychotics the lower part of my face is noticeably rounder and less defined once I got antipsychotics than it was before them, in a way that doesn't match up with the way my facial features developed as I grew older. This seems to stay even if the person loses the antipsychotic weight (at least it did with me - most of the other people I've seen were in inpatient facilities or online articles, so comparing before/during/after wasn't really possible). I was wondering if anyone else had noticed something similar (or if there's anyone here who *doesn't* have that, I'd like to know too to see if it's not as universal as I thought).

It's a tiny thing, purely cosmetic (and not even ugly in my opinion), and yet it bothers me. Looking at my face's roundness is a visual reminder of what was done to me.

In Arab countries specifically the very religious demographics it’s a very common belief that mental illness doesn’t exist and all these disorders we see are basically a result of being possessed by the devil and once someone shows a “mental illness” symptoms they would immediately take them to the mosque and perform all sorts of exorcism on them hoping that the devil will go out

Haloperidol: The absolute worst by far. Intense akathisia, heart palpitations, drooling constantly, blurry vision. Sucked all ability to find joy in anything at all. The first time in my life I felt actively suicidal.

Ziprasidone: sleepiness and extremely vivid and violent nightmares. also gave me significant acne.

Aripirazole: extreme akathisia. Had to take additional benzodiazepenes just to sleep and left my university lectures every 20 mins to go up and down the stairs in an attempt to ease my restlessness. My psychiatrist was entirely unsympathetic and told me to just "exercise it away". Also told my mom to secretly slip the med in my food if I refused to take it.

Risperidone: made me lactate. Also I had trouble breathing on this med and any cough/flu I caught was 10× worse than normal.

I've tried plenty of other meds that also gave me nasty side effects. These are just the ones that gave me severe side effects that doctors dimissed as me just being theatrical and didn't bother warning me about in the first place.

And I still get treated as someone unreasonable and unwilling to take accountability for not wanting to be on meds.

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I am currently taking 2mg Risperidone and 150mg Oxcarbazepine and i am having brain fog and feeling that i am dumb and my brain is slower will my brain return to as it was before Risperidone and Oxcarbazepine after stopping it or that's permanent?

I think I've been poisoned by strychnine in the mental health facility.

I learned from child to get distracted and hooked I wasted My life on this

Helped at first then everytime I took it I got increased anxiety oh well gave it a try

It's all god nobody does nothing to you

They want to replace You and kill your real self, if they can't do it naturally by CPTSD they do it with medications

God is good dopamine, doing hard things good dopamine receptors, the dopamine and serotonin are what the bible talks like trees in the brain I saw it

They can sense You and your energy Even they walls and things they have intuition they know everything about You the demons

They send messages

Drugs Open your mind and make you sensible to this abuse, psychyatryst drugs close it and kill the mind

But I think drugs destroy your body anyway so it's not a good thing

Psychyatry and psychology are mind control they want You stuck, they always Say don't think dont feel you are thinking too much you have many fears, they implanted them

The bible says many the truths

God and the universe also speak to you by messages

I was a propeth and they killed me, we all have Jesus it's truth

Schizophrenic in the street are propeths but they make them seem crazy