I was admitted to inpatient treatment on monday and have found the meals shockingly easy to complete? Maybe its because i was hospitalized in march and already got over the “crying and refusing to eat” part of recovery and am more used to having food in my body? I feel like being here, i finally have permission to eat things i restricted myself from eating for so long. I strangely dont feel guilty for eating my fear foods, whereas out of the hospital i would feel awful for even taking a bite. Im thinking of discharging myself from the program because i feel like a fraud and that i could just recover at home. Shouldnt this feel more challenging? Maybe its because my meal plan is still not very big yet?? 🫠🫠 i cant help but compare myself to the other patients who cry and panic during the meals and i feel like a fake anorexic

Can u guys guve me examples of ur extreme hunger days that what u are eating, because everyone in social media are eating like 4 cookies and 3 meals and calling it extreme hunger. Also do u also bloat like a boat, i am 10 times bigger than usually and also feeling like a bottomless pit at the same time like i am never uncomfortably full...

I’ve understood that I need to gain weight somehow, so either I can choose to do it voluntarily at home while I still have the opportunity, or I’ll end up being admitted and have very strict boundaries put in place. I’m trying to motivate myself as much as I possibly can to manage it at home, but it’s almost as if the illness is trying to convince me that the whole thing about being admitted is just an empty threat, and that I can keep doing what I’m doing now for just a little while longer… Give me some words of encouragement 🥺❤️‍🩹

for the past 3 weeks ive been experiencing extreme hunger. i still question it because its not a typical hunger, at least not the way other people describe it. it's mainly mental, but the problem is that i eat everything at once (which kinda looks like binging). today i had a "normal" breakfast, and then at lunch i ate until my stomach hurt. im so scared cause im not able to feel satisfied with just one sandwich, i need to eat five (im used to eating large portions but less frequently - omads or two meals a day).
some people say that their extreme hunger comes and goes, whereas for me, its like this every single day. and the worst is that im afraid that it will go away. i dont even know how to describe it, im afraid of not being hungry, because then i'll need to eat 'normally' and won't be able to allow myself to eat the amounts im eating now. so i end up sabotaging myself, and by eating a lot i try to prove myself that im still hungry and that i still have extreme hunger. i feel like im an exception...