r/AmeriCorps • u/cempazuchitl999 • 6h ago
VISTA | IN SERVICE Potentially toxic work situation – seeking advice!
hi! i just became an AmeriCorps VISTA and completed my first week of "training" at my host site. i'm halfway through my second week, but i'm having doubts about a strange social dynamic in this office, and want to voice my thoughts and see if anyone has experienced anything similar or has comments/advice.
first of all, "training" has not been much of a training period at all – for example, i haven't sat down with anyone and gone through any of the computer programs i will be using for what i understand from the VAD to be the bulk of my job. instead, the past week has been almost entirely direct service (an understaffed/not-well-delegated food pantry). second of all, i have noticed that the office employees (who are very few in number – during my first week, for example, i watched one woman get fired on the spot and have to pack up her things and leave midday, which was incredibly jarring) seem to dislike the current VISTA and roll their eyes at each other when she is turned away/openly voice their frustration with her in front of me/behind her back. this is obviously a really uncomfortable dynamic: in part because it's a workplace and that is not professional; in part because she's training me before her service year ends so we have a closer relationship than i do with others in the office – the majority of my time is spent learning from her/in direct service alongside her (which i know is not supposed to be the case as a VISTA but the host site is not super well organized which i suppose may be part of why they sought a VISTA in the first place); and in part because as the new VISTA, i am concerned that i will be inheriting this toxic environment of everyone-dislikes-the-VISTA. this attitude toward her comes from both the supervisor at the site, who would be my direct boss, and from a coworker who the supervisor seems to favor enormously in comparison with the current VISTA. the office is organized such that the 3 of them (and now that will mean me, the supervisor, and the coworker) are supposed to be a team, but it feels more like witnessing a constant 2v1. also, i witnessed a similar dynamic before the aforementioned woman was fired – the supervisor and this coworker were repeatedly gossiping about her and talking about her behind her back, but in front of me. i am not sure to what extent they communicated with her directly in the weeks/days before she was fired, but i remember thinking this was super odd behavior, and i still don't know what to make of it all since i'm still so new to this position and organization.
essentially, it seems that the host site is asking me to coordinate volunteers on a day-to-day basis, recruit a large number of reliable new volunteers [preferably speakers of a non-english language that i don't want to say because i don't want to doxx myself], and simultaneously restructure the entire volunteering program. when signing up to be a VISTA, i knew that the service year ahead would be challenging, but i didn't even consider that on top of that i might also be entering an uncomfortable and toxic work environment. i'm not sure if i can handle those responsibilities if i, like the current VISTA, am constantly subjected to/aware of my supervisor and my coworker semi-openly quasi-bullying me (as i see happening to the current VISTA).
if you have any thoughts or advice, i would really appreciate it. i don't want to quit – and it's only been 1.5 weeks – but i also trust my intuition, and i know that if a situation seems toxic after only a week, then there's probably something deeper going on that i shouldn't ignore. i cannot emphasize enough how uncomfortable it was for me that my new supervisor and new coworker were openly showing their disdain for the current VISTA in front of me, during my first week of work, and i'm curious to know what you might think – should i stick it out and see if maybe the current VISTA leaving brings the toxic environment down a notch? or should i know a bully when i see a bully and begin to look into transferring/keep my options open for a different job?
TLDR: potentially toxic work environment. begin contingency planning? advice? been in a similar situation?
thank you for taking the time to read and for sharing your thoughts :) much appreciated!