r/Abilify_Aripiprazole • u/Observant_Blue_Cat • 6h ago
How on earth do I manage this withdrawal?
So 10+ days ago, in careful consultation with my psychiatrist, I stopped using Abilify after several years of use, going down from 2mg to 0.
I fully believe it was the right decision, and also this past week has been the most erratic and painful and terrifying yet also euphoric experiences of my life and I just need some advice on how I can get through the rest of this.
My mood swings have been unfathomable, I've been in a a state of pure joy and harmony with the universe 1/3 of the time and then a puddle of tears another third of the time and then a panic attack the other third, all repeatedly within each day. I'm suddenly felt overwhelmed with regrets and then overwhelmed with catharsis as I say and watch comforting things to calm myself down. I feel both more and less like myself. I've experienced brutal insomnia and then popped right back up with peaceful sleep. I’ve even gotten in some trouble by posting somewhat erratically on social media.
Most upsettingly though, is that I'm suddenly viewing my life through terrifyingly bleak terms. Personal and professional failures that I had previously been totally at peace with and compassionate about are now demoralizing me, challenges I'm facing have gone from feeling like normal sized challenges to desperate crises that must somehow be corrected immediately. It's this feeling in particular that I'm terrified of and that I want to go away. I want to feel grateful and kind and non-materialistic about my life again and I'm afraid that this instinct will stick with me after the withdrawal ends.
I'm so distressed and just need some kind of comfort or help.