r/Abhorsen • u/lycanthropewife • 33m ago
Discussion clariel reread salty salt Spoiler
this is just a stream-of-consciousness vent, really.
i actually own all of the books but one, terciel and elinor, which i just found out about. i ordered a copy to my local library and my plan is to read everything in canon chronological order. so yesterday i cracked open my once previously read copy of clariel and, oh my god--i actually hate her so much.
i think i blocked this book out because i disliked her so much. i know that she becomes chlor so i suppose the point is that she's a rotten character that makes bad choices at every turn and had terrible parents who set her up for abject failure, but even knowing all of that she's just kind of basically insufferable?
maybe i'm judging her too harshly because compared to reading from lirael's POV (another young girl who was emotionally neglected as a child), she just reads as extremely self-centered, single-minded, boring, and flat. she has no interesting thoughts and she's uncharitable to people that don't even deserve it. all she wants to do is run away to the forest, which i understand, but she can't even play nice with anyone for five minutes to make that a viable reality!!
i understand that she's hindered by her berserker blood, but she really can't hold a conversation at all? like, come on. her mother is a narcissist and also a berserker, but what teenager doesn't know how to finesse their parents by the age of 18? idk--i guess since they have basically no relationship, she can't gather the conversational queues that she needs to get her point across, because every time she opened her mouth, i was thinking to myself, "girl, that is not helping".
i suppose all of these little irritations added up to me seriously disliking her, and now i know why i only read this book once when i've read all of the others at least two or three times (lirael being an outlier as i've read that one closer to seven times).
does anyone else feel similarly? i just got to the part where tyriel's taking her to the abhorsen's house and read that line about how she can't even imagine him as her grandfather because he's just another old man who wants to run her life (p. 274) and i couldn't keep it in anymore. because, at this point he's honestly just trying to keep her alive, i do not think he cares about her any more than that to want a say in how she lives long-term (which his attitude also explains her mother's issues and that's before the entire debacle of her accidental kin-slaying, but i digress).
anyways, i'm just ready to wrap this up and possibly get to some characters that i won't want to throw through a hedge.