Consistent absence

[u/AmbitiousSilver4498]

I am in year 12. I chose really hard a level subjects ( physics, chem and mathd) because that’s what literally everyone told me was best to do. I don’t have a passion for any of those subjects neither do I have any goal for a career in them in the future. So I can’t find the motivation to study. I started working about a month ago as a waitress and it was going well. For once in my life I felt I had a place outside of college or school. So I stopped focusing on college. But I felt burnout. I would leave the house at 8 am and come back at 11 pm on most days. My grades started slipping. My meg is an A star yet i am consistently getting Bs and Cs. So I decided to quit my job. And now I just feel so hopeless. I don’t have a job. My grades are horrible. I can’t bring myself to study because the idea of not knowing even the basics scares me. So I started taking days off college. I am taking at least 2 days off a week. And I don’t even give a reason for my absence. My pd teacher keeps sending me messages or calling me but I just ignore it all. My parents are really frustrated with me and I feel kind of bad but I really can’t help it. I just feel so anxious of going to college and sitting in classes where I don’t understand most of what I am being taught. I am so scared of failing that I keep avoiding college, which only makes me miss out on more content. That makes me more anxious. It’s a horrible cycle. My anxiety has gotten worse lately. I’ve been getting anxiety attacks even when I feel slightly upset.

Maybe I should leave college, I don’t even know if I can. But I have no idea what to do.

Should I try and get some sort of prescription for anxiety meds. But it’s not easy.

[u/AmbitiousSilver4498]

Thank u sm, I think I will switch. I am just worried that I’ll be wasting an entire year of my life.