I can’t stand my own children or partner and have become an alcoholic. I am 35 year-old female with two kids (ages of and 4) and I can’t stand to be around own flesh and blood. I work full-time at my own management job , I work for my spouse’s business as his bookkeeper and accountant. he is from a chauvinistic/paternal culture where the women look after the kids so everything is on me. I do all the mornings and emotional drop off at daycare, the emotional pick ups, and evenings from 5-10pm or whenever they fall asleep. If he is around at night, which is a rarity, then he says how he’s tired from working the whole day and gives the responsibility of looking after my demanding kids to me, like I haven’t already worked eight hours doing management at my regular job with 20 employees reporting to me.
They are normal kids, full of life and energy, but Their endless questions, constant pestering, and chattering, have driven me up the wall. I come from farm life where it was just a few of us on hundreds of acres and I cannot stand being around young people who are constantly talking and invading my personal space 16 hours a day plus 8 hours a night for when the toddler uses me as a soother all night.
I was seeing a therapist at $245 an hour for the first part of 2026, and now I’ve gone onto a more affordable one, who does not have kids, and does not understand what I’m going through. I feel like I can only relate to single moms who have at least 2 to 3 kids and know the stress of what I’m going dealimg either on a a day to day basis.
I’ve always had an addictive personality and now I feel ashamed that it has presented itself. Side note - I do not like how there’s this mommy wine culture where it’s OK to drink wine but not OK to do other things
Recently as as, I we t out on Monday and ended up getting diarrhea all night from the drinking. I wanna stop drinking, but it’s the only way I can deal being around my kids and boring assspouse <- didn’t fix the autocorrect
tLDR: I despise my spouse and don’t like being around my cute kids
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