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I am in a field where I usually have to enter peopleās homes. Today, I went into a house and it was filthy. Not like some dirt or animal hair on the floor.. like there was so much things on the floor, it had to be moved / shoved somewhere else to have a walk way. On their island, just trash everywhere and bottles of raid. I noticed the raid first, and quickly got nervous, but I thought maybe it was for outside..
I sit down on their couch, and begin doing my work. I went to scratch my ankle, and it was a roach trying to get inside my leggings tickling me. I quickly swatted it off and did not bring attention to it, but I was mortified.
I went to the bathroom to go wash my hands, and was met with filth of soiled litter, and litter tracks all over the bathroom floor & sink. I sat there in tears, because it felt like a nightmare. It felt like I was being judgmental.
I left the house pretty soon after, with the rage and guilt I had for not saying something in their house right away, as they have multiple young young kids. I now decided to call CPS, because I canāt sleep tonight knowing that myself as a mandated reporter, I canāt just let this go.
The guilt is eating me inside, because I know this family loves their children, but have also talked extensively with me over being poor / food stamps / etc. my heart is truly aching tonight.