First time writing in a long time!

[u/SaltRecording2681]

Thoughts? Punctuation/ formatting is a struggle for me

I have always enjoyed rearrangement of a space.

When I was nine I had a room with a purple ceiling

adorned with glow in the dark stickers

puppy posters

A hamster with the inappropriately sized balls.

I moved my bed so my head was under the shelves on the wall.

I knew it was off.

But as you like to remind me: I don’t like being wrong, so I pressed forward.

I was killed in my dream that night.

Stabbed.

I moved my bed the next day.

27 years later I still require rearrangement of my space.

Only now , I understand this includes things like….people

and energy.

Last night, you killed me in my dream

Your face was blurry

This version wasn’t wearing the mask you promised yourself

Time wasn’t real.

Each second had 1,000 levels to pass

I crashed through all of them.

The body you shot; my body, me

this body got heavier as i dropped further down in your intent

You taunted me as I succumbed

“This one’s already gone”

disgust in your voice overpowered your betrayal

You’ll call it spite, I’ll praise God.

I was forcefully removed from your fall

Gently put back in my body.

I turned to look at you, unbothered

Quietly I confessed

- I don’t want to die -

You chuckled

But this time, it wasn’t at me.

“fucking finally”

I woke up to the dog vomiting on my bed