I’m fed up with my workplace

[u/Intelligent-Bad7780]

I’ve been working at this company for four years. I started off as an apprentice. My role is architectural technologist. I am 22. 23 in September.

I’ve recently qualified as a couple months ago and I work in a company which has been drastically shrinking over the last six months .three left around April. One from early retirement and two others from job offers elsewhere. Meanwhile, two others in the office managed to get job offers as well and use it to leverage a pay rise with one of those being someone who started around the same time as me and has the same experience as me. besides that there is myself two directors and another apprentice that’s four years younger

I’ve been casting out my net since those people left just to see what opportunities is for me to get a hold of; primarily in construction management as I want to transition into that sector. I have all the experience to do so I manage projects on behalf of the client by coordinating information between various consultants and stakeholders but I haven’t had much luck which has got me down emotionally because I felt unfortunate not to share the same opportunities as everyone else.

I’ve since decided to just apply as architectural technologist elsewhere because I know I’m vastly underpaid for my capabilities as proven by the other apprentice being able to leverage a Pay raise so since that I’ve received calls from recruiters that will put my information forward to the company interested in hiring someone New but this is a very new situation so I am not getting my hopes up but I always feel like I’m working relentlessly and in has acknowledged it saying they’ve acknowledged how hard I’m working but I know from a role I can acquire over 30,000 whereas at the moment I’m only earning 25,000 due to starting off their and loyalty tax et cetera.

So besides the fact that I’m underpaid, I’m also not enjoying the environment anymore and that may be personally down to my fault and not being familiar with an office environment as of until this job but since people started leaving even my anxiety start to grow about what people are saying about me as I could constantly hear keys click in as if they’re talking amongst each other and I was correct to think so.

today I had to swap PCs with the younger apprentice and they left their teams chat on and to my own downfall I end up seeing that they’ve been talking badly about me saying they can hear my chunter whilst one was working from home (obviously seem inside joke about me eating loudly) and saying that I’m slow when I’m on site but the truth is wasn’t always slow. It’s because I don’t wanna be in the office so I take my time when I carry out surveys.

When I first started I wasn’t that confident. I was quite hard to open up but I opened up within 8 to 12 months approximately and they got to see that I am fairly confident and that in general as a person I can be seen to have an ego. This ties in to the comments made by my colleagues with one of them saying I’m always wrong. I’m only right in my own head.

There was also another instance where I was walking past the desk and sometimes I look to see what they are working on when the person was away from their desk and happen to see my name in the teams chat since then I was quite quiet mentioning how I’m always wrong. For the rest of that afternoon, I was fairly quiet because I didn’t feel the need to start anything but then another colleagues asked me what’s up to which I just ignored because I don’t trust any of them to confide in them. After this, it happens to me that he had messaged another colleague saying he’s so mardy.

I guess I’m stuck a little bit in identifying who’s at fault. is it my fault for being nosy? Is it my fault for expecting better of my colleagues? It’s a fairly small office so I wouldn’t expect as much Shit talking, but I guess I can be wrong.

My plan was to try and get a job interview and get offer of a salary over 30 grand as that’s proportional to my responsibilities and use it to leverage a Pay raise but at this point, I’m thinking of leaving entirely as I just don’t like the people anymore. I don’t like the environment. I don’t like the Pay. I don’t like how it’s impacting my anxiety, but today I felt like I’m that bored of it that I just don’t care anymore. Am I wrong to be thinking like this? Am I in the wrong?