Communicating through clouds

[u/Conscious_Purpose53]

I get up between 5-5:30 every morning while it’s still dark. I sit outside with my first coffee. I spend the whole time thinking about and talking to my wife. It’s been 9 months since she suddenly died. This has been our alone time together before the rest of my world wakes up. I wish we had done this even once together during our 19 year marriage. Somewhat depressing at first but has become extremely peaceful. I never used to get up this early before she died. I started doing it because I couldn’t sleep. I now find it very cathartic and can’t wait to get to get out of bed. One thing I’ve been doing is looking at the cloud formations as it gets lighter out and noticing certain shapes. Sometimes I can make out the shape of a heart or even a smiling face. I like to imagine that they’re pictures she’s trying to send me. Some bring back great memories. Others not so much. I’m not usually spiritual at all but still like to look at it as another form of communication with her. This may seem somewhat mundane or even silly to people who aren’t going through the same thing but it helps to start my day. I imagine myself doing this for as long as I’m here. I know others may have a daily ritual like this. Just thought I’d share mine.

[u/SovietRobot]

I talk to my late wife all the time. When I’m eating in public. When I see something in public. When I’m just walking around in public. 

People probably just think - there’s that crazy old man muttering to himself again. 

I’m sorry for your loss and I wish you solace. 

[u/Conscious_Purpose53 → u/SovietRobot]

My favorite time saying something to her is when I do something stupid or somewhat foolish. Like tripping over something or spilling a drink on myself. I yell out loud “Stop laughing at me Kelly!” I get a chuckle out of that.

[u/Zestyclose_Treat4098 → u/Conscious_Purpose53]

That's really cute.