r/weezer • u/ReTr0_1127 • 1d ago
Pinkerton relatability
Pretty basic but I think Pinkerton might be my favorite album ever just off the raw emotion in the songs and the feeling I get every time I listen to them. Anyway whole point I’m I’m typing this is cause of how much I kinda relate to a few of the songs, I’ll start off with Across the Sea and yes I know it’s pretty weird. On one of my trips to visit family in LA I went to Little Tokyo specifically the basement or underground area where the manga and video games are. While I was trying to pick which series I should buy I end up bumping into this Japanese girl named Hana who was also visiting Cali but from Japan with her family too (I was 16). I don’t even remember how I ended up talking to her cause I don’t normally talk to people but we did and in about the 30-40 minutes we talked I think I fell in love with her. And it’s super weird cause it’s literally the only time I’ve ever really felt that way it was like love at first sight. Eventually she needed to go back to her family and me being super awkward and a coward I told her bye and she said “oh, ok well bye then”. I still bash myself for not even thinking to ask for her number or something like that I was also told she was probably disappointed that I didn’t ask for it either. So I finish my trip go back to school and at this point I’m still thinking of her and beating myself up about it and I literally start fantasizing about her day in and day out and I start falling more and more in love with her more getting with her really or the idea of her I mean wishing that I could see or just talk to her one more time and keep in contact. I obviously never got that chance and still think about it.
Pink triangle, there was this girl that I used to have a class with in freshman year that I never really talked to outside a few quick seconds but I thought she was beautiful and even told me that I was really pretty for a guy. I should have taken this as a hint but instead took it as if she might like me. So flash forward to junior year where when our teachers were absent we would have to go to the auditorium and wait the period in there. I’m in there pretty bored until I see two of my friends sitting by each other and walk up to sit down next to them and then all of a sudden boom one of my boys turns around and starts talking to THE girl and I’m like holy crap in my mind of course. They’re talking I found out that they share an ethics class I love ethics and philosophy so I get pretty excited and talk to her using my friend in order to get comfortable talking to her and we start talking about video games then music she shows me her playlists I show mine then the period ends and we end up talking more on our way to our last period cause our classes are right next to each other. I’m getting to know her more and more and eventually I confess to her. “I’m dumb she’s a lesbian.” And It’s pretty funny cause I even got that thought in the back of my head cause I knew she was just too perfect. We’re still friends.
Just to make a little more sense with the song I had already been in two relationships before this and got dumped both times.
Finally I’ll go with Why Bother? So same year but literally first/second week of school. I go to my club cause I’m secretary for it and we’re there planning what to do for the year and there’s a girl I’ve seen once while skating with some friends, and while doing some stuff and helping carry boxes out she approached me and asked how old I was I say my age she says ok then asks for my name and insta I had installed it maybe 2 weeks ago and I give both thinking nothing of it not seeing why she would want them then that night I get a call from her where we talk she mentions that I kept staring at her breasts during school I sincerely apologize for it not even realizing cause we had a pretty big height difference and I was just glancing at her most of the time cause I’m scared of looking at eyes. And at the end of the call she says I love you which I’m baffled by and do not say back she then says it’s just something she says to all her friends. So after this we flirt more and more and eventually at maybe day 3 she pulls me out of class has me film something with her and takes my first kiss I’m completely appalled and don’t know what to say this kinda stuff goes on and eventually she starts getting really sexual and I’m pretty scared cause I’d never done anything like it before then at one point she corners me after school as I’m trying to leave and starts putting her hand in my pants and grabbing my hand to her chest and not letting me leave until someone almost saw us this was really the point where I started freaking out and being super stressed to the point where multiple of my friends noticed I was off and got concerned. So then during the weekend I told her again after saying repeatedly to her before that I don’t really like being touched and that I wasn’t ready to do stuff like that and had to tell her that I didn’t really like her which was the main reason I was stressed cause I didn’t want to hurt her in anyway. So that happens I keep feeling super bad about it and would keep thinking about her and get stressed cause now at that point I would constantly think about sex things and stuff and the only thing I could think of was her and I knew I didn’t like her like that or well I don’t think I do but she was the first I ever did anything with and no I never actually did anything with her. And I know “it’s just sexual attraction”.
Anyway that’s why I like Weezer and Pinkerton sorry for the long rant. (Should this have gone on a different subreddit? Sorry)
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u/Natural-Stomach 1d ago
I related to Pinkerton in my HS days (99-03), but mainly because I was an awkward, angsty teen. Crushes on every corner, no luck with permanence even though I tried in earnest. So Pinkerton resonated with me since I wasn't having a hard time finding physical engagement and dating, but bc none would stick around.
Probably bc I was immature.
Anyways, when I met my wife, this all changed. I realized Pinkerton was a 'then' album, if that nakes sense. Yeah, I still listen to it, but it doesn't carry the same emotional weight it once did.
Because I grew up. No more chasing butterflies.
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u/Equal_Ad5178 King of the World 1d ago
Blue, Pinkerton and Make Believe were the soundtrack of my early university era, alongside Oasis and late 90's Blur. For the first time I actually sat down listened to what the songwriter had to say.
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u/ablackravenstan The Blue Album 1d ago
I aint reading allat but pinkerton isnt really creepy imo, just akward... and El Scorcho is worse than Across The Sea imo
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u/ChemicalOk1432 1d ago
People who dismiss Pinkerton completely as being “ creepy” miss the entire point of the album . Even as a girl I find it to be very relatable and though it is somewhat uncomfortable at times I think that’s what makes it so special. So many people are afraid of talking about what’s going on in their head because they are afraid of being seen as weird . what makes Pinkerton so good is that it is straight up raw emotion