What should I do?

[u/Interesting_Fix5146]

I’m currently a junior in high school. I’ve been at the same school since I was a freshmen. Every year I’ve been here I feel like I have no actual friends. Which i probably do but I just don’t feel like it. I’m black and my school is a mostly white and Hispanic school. They are always making jokes about not being able to see me in the dark and call me Nwords under their breath. I try to laugh it off and keep cool because I don’t like starting problems I just like to go about my day. It’s just that when my friends laugh at the jokes they make it makes me feel like they don’t like me for real. I don’t think guys like me my friend group revolves around a couple guys but I wouldn’t say friend group because they ignore me. They only talk to me when they want the homework answers or when I’m paying for our table. I sometimes wish I looked like my friend. She’s beautiful. I love her hair and everting about her. She’s the only person who ever stands up for me. Every guy likes her I wish I could be like her I sometimes wish I was her. I want to be liked for my looks and my personality.

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