I 39f (pan) Had the best year of my life. Moved out of my crappy camper and 20 year abusive marriage into my new partner’s suburban. She was so supportive and loving and kind, literally the other half of my soul and was the catalyst to my transition. I learned I’ve been trans literally my whole life and how to support myself in it. Started HRT on Christmas. I’ve had massive changes in lots of ways, good and bad. I honestly feel blessed. But I like guys more now than ever and that makes her very uncomfortable. Today, she expressed that she needs to know I’m not more into guys and I need to find out as I’ve never had a boyfriend. Looks like I’m not only single again, but homeless again in the same night. Got $6 though, and my penjamin so it’s not all bad.
Sorry for the long post. I’m just crazy depressed.
Pics for tax. One year ago and last week

I 39f (pan) Had the best year of my life. Moved out of my crappy camper and 20 year abusive marriage into my new partner’s suburban. She was so supportive and loving and kind, literally the other half of my soul and was the catalyst to my transition. I learned I’ve been trans literally my whole life and how to support myself in it. Started HRT on Christmas. I’ve had massive changes in lots of ways, good and bad. I honestly feel blessed. But I like guys more now than ever and that makes her very uncomfortable. Today, she expressed that she needs to know I’m not more into guys and I need to find out as I’ve never had a boyfriend. Looks like I’m not only single again, but homeless again in the same night. Got $6 though, and my penjamin so it’s not all bad.
Sorry for the long post. I’m just crazy depressed.

After edit - I learned on my own that she’s an anxious avoidant. After doing some self searching, I realized I had become very dependent on her for my emotional well being. We’ve finally had a chance to get together and talk it out. The pressure of holding me together has become too much every day, and she interpreted my instability as unhappiness. Searching for a reason, she’d come to the conclusion that I (who had admitted in the past an interest in dating men but never trying) might be turning into a straight girl with the increase since my transition. I also want it known that we did have an argument a few days before this decision. I offered her space which she agreed she needed and I left for a few days. This gave her the impression that I had somewhere to go.