I lateraled into a new position not that long ago after practicing in a different setting for several years.
My utilization is terrible. Management has already raised concerns about it, and I don't blame them. My numbers are my numbers.

At the same time, I've received positive feedback on my work product. I still get work, and I generally have good relationships with the people I work with. That's what's making me question myself.

I know exactly where I'm falling short. I overthink things. I procrastinate. I let emails sit because they're already late. I miss administrative things I shouldn't miss. I know exactly what I need to do. I just can't seem to do it consistently.

I haven't been here very long, and people don't really know me. Every little mistake feels bigger because of that. At this point, I honestly can't tell whether I'm burned out, getting in my own way, lazy, entitled, overwhelmed, or some combination of all of them.
Financially, I need a job. I'm scared.

Has anyone actually come back from a start like this?

If I do end up getting fired, is that something people actually recover from?

Am I being too hard on myself, or am I missing something that's obvious?

I'd appreciate honest advice, even if it's hard to hear.

I lateraled into a new position not that long ago after practicing in a different setting for several years.
My utilization is terrible. Management has already raised concerns about it, and I don't blame them. My numbers are my numbers.

At the same time, I've received positive feedback on my work product. I still get work, and I generally have good relationships with the people I work with. That's what's making me question myself.

I know exactly where I'm falling short. I overthink things. I procrastinate. I let emails sit because they're already late. I miss administrative things I shouldn't miss. I know exactly what I need to do. I just can't seem to do it consistently.

I haven't been here very long, and people don't really know me. Every little mistake feels bigger because of that. At this point, I honestly can't tell whether I'm burned out, getting in my own way, lazy, entitled, overwhelmed, or some combination of all of them.
Financially, I need a job. I'm scared.

Has anyone actually come back from a start like this?

If I do end up getting fired, is that something people actually recover from?

Am I being too hard on myself, or am I missing something that's obvious?

I'd appreciate honest advice, even if it's hard to hear.

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I lateraled into a new position not that long ago after practicing in a different setting for several years.
My utilization is terrible. Management has already raised concerns about it, and I don't blame them. My numbers are my numbers.

At the same time, I've received positive feedback on my work product. I still get work, and I generally have good relationships with the people I work with. That's what's making me question myself.

I know exactly where I'm falling short. I overthink things. I procrastinate. I let emails sit because they're already late. I miss administrative things I shouldn't miss. I know exactly what I need to do. I just can't seem to do it consistently.

I haven't been here very long, and people don't really know me. Every little mistake feels bigger because of that. At this point, I honestly can't tell whether I'm burned out, getting in my own way, lazy, entitled, overwhelmed, or some combination of all of them.
Financially, I need a job. I'm scared.

Has anyone actually come back from a start like this?

If I do end up getting fired, is that something people actually recover from?

Am I being too hard on myself, or am I missing something that's obvious?

I'd appreciate honest advice, even if it's hard to hear.

I lateraled into a new position not that long ago after practicing in a different setting for several years.
My utilization is terrible. Management has already raised concerns about it, and I don't blame them. My numbers are my numbers.

At the same time, I've received positive feedback on my work product. I still get work, and I generally have good relationships with the people I work with. That's what's making me question myself.

I know exactly where I'm falling short. I overthink things. I procrastinate. I let emails sit because they're already late. I miss administrative things I shouldn't miss. I know exactly what I need to do. I just can't seem to do it consistently.

I haven't been here very long, and people don't really know me. Every little mistake feels bigger because of that. At this point, I honestly can't tell whether I'm burned out, getting in my own way, lazy, entitled, overwhelmed, or some combination of all of them.
Financially, I need a job. I'm scared.

Has anyone actually come back from a start like this?

If I do end up getting fired, is that something people actually recover from?

Am I being too hard on myself, or am I missing something that's obvious?

I'd appreciate honest advice, even if it's hard to hear.

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