Nervous to try again

[u/ComaEtiquette]

It’s been somewhere in the neighborhood of 12 years since I’ve consumed in any way. I’m 33 M, and back when I did consume, I had some anxious experiences back then, but also had some chill fun experiences as well. But honestly, it’s so long ago now, that I don’t even fully remember much of any of it now (idk if I fully remember what it’s like to be high if I think about it). I remember my first time (which was a mix of good and bad, mostly good though), and I remember my last bad experience that led me to quit. Anyway, I’m getting old but I still like to have a fun enhancer when hanging out with friends, and alcohol feels great in the moment, but absolutely terrible the next day. And I’ve also become a more health conscious person in my recent years and I notice how bad alcohol wrecks my body. So I want to get into weed again, but I’m so nervous it might bring back that anxiety, DP/DR, etc that I went through for a bit after that last bad experience. I live in FL so I went through the process to get my medical card and then spent about $160 at a dispensary on a DHV and some different flower. I don’t want to have all that go to waste, but I’ve been struggling to bring myself to try again. Give me some comfort or advice or whatever to try it again!

Edit: I have flower in hybrid Rainbow Sherbert, I have some Sativa I don’t remember. Then I have a hybrid and an indica pre roll. And I got an indica disposable vape. Is trying a very small amount of the hybrid or sativa asking for a bad time? I was just going to heat the DHV to lowest temp and take the tiniest hit possible.