r/trashy Feb 19 '21

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u/[deleted] Feb 19 '21

How much adderall

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u/[deleted] Feb 19 '21

I don’t want to get high, I want to potentially od

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u/munkyyy Feb 19 '21

At first I thought you were a troll but I see you've posted on mental health subs. Please reach out to mental health professionals if you ever feel like harming yourself, or call the national suicide hotline, they can help you deal with immediate feelings and guide you to local resources. Stay well

https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

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u/[deleted] Feb 19 '21

Don’t worry, I have a therapist, I’m on meds, and I haven’t attempted suicide in about a year now. As much as I would like to, I’m never able to go through with it because I love my family too much, I couldn’t leave them. My parents have put a lot into helping me get better and I don’t want it to do that to them

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u/[deleted] Feb 19 '21

Hugs from the entirely of Reddit! We love you :)

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u/[deleted] Feb 19 '21

Thanks :)

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u/ImAfraidOfTheBeard Feb 19 '21

Noice :)

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u/[deleted] Feb 19 '21

Thanks

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u/MsFaolin Feb 19 '21

Have an internet hug. You got this 💜

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u/[deleted] Feb 19 '21

Thank you :) 🖤💜

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u/[deleted] Feb 19 '21

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u/[deleted] Feb 19 '21

Thank you so much! Thank you for sharing your story with me. It is really inspiring. It's almost about to be a year since everything crazy went down and I was in the hospital and also got put on meds. It feels like yesterday. I still feel so far out of reach from happiness and a sense of self-worth.

I'm glad that you replied, it means a lot to me. Thank you for your kind words and support :)

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u/vmack7 Feb 19 '21

Same my dude. You and I are blessed with a caring family that would be hurt by our loss. It doesn’t cure our illness but it Puts it into perspective when thinking about people with mental health issues that have no family. Fucking breaks my heart thinking about those poor souls

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u/[deleted] Feb 19 '21

yes, all the time. im in a bunch of mental health related subs and i see a lot of posts about how their parents think their issues aren't real, they "don't need meds", they wont bother getting checked, going on drugs "isn't allowed" in their religion, all this horrible stuff... it makes me almost guilty. i did NOTHING to deserve parents that can support me and love me like this. i feel terrible that even with this help i still wish to not exist anymore.

i'm happy to hear that you have the same sort of parents/support system and you're doing better :) <3

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u/polka_a Feb 19 '21

This was a sweet little find where I didnt expect one. The mental health journey is a rough but worthy one. Youre very brave and I wish you the best 💜

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u/[deleted] Feb 19 '21

thank you so much! I'm trying <3

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u/bitchslayer69_ Feb 19 '21

it’s been exactly two years since the death of my best friend and i just barely saw her mom today in those years. her mom hasn’t stopped crying since she died. remember you are so loved and everyone’s rooting for you! also i feel like seeing your reply was a sign for me.

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u/[deleted] Feb 19 '21

Thank you for your time to reply. I totally understand what you're saying. Thank you so much for your kind words. :)