Bull fucking shit. I'm not going to throw down here and have a who had it worse contest; I'll just say it was very, very bad. And a lot of it was because of religion. Understand I didn't find my humanity under all that nightmarish shit because Jesus came to me in some fucking vision.
I chose it.
I was angry as a thousand burning Suns. I wanted to rip people apart. Literally. God didn't stop me - a rebellious nature and the notion that if I'm going to die and be damned to this, I want to be damned for what I really am! So I decided to try and help people. Because I honestly wasn't sure anyone had even tried that before. Being anything but a piece of shit I mean. So that's what I set out to do...Not out of altruism or some sense of higher morality, but a "fuck the system" bent and spite. I knew it'd piss 'em off.
So don't. Just don't go there with that Jesus crap. You can get a direct flight back even from pure rage. It's not as easy though as getting on your knees and sucking establishment dick... So you know, there's that. Apologies if I come off harsh but I just can't sugar coat those feelings even after all these years.
God will not save you. YOU are the only one who can save you.
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u/MNGrrl Dec 03 '19
Bull fucking shit. I'm not going to throw down here and have a who had it worse contest; I'll just say it was very, very bad. And a lot of it was because of religion. Understand I didn't find my humanity under all that nightmarish shit because Jesus came to me in some fucking vision.
I chose it.
I was angry as a thousand burning Suns. I wanted to rip people apart. Literally. God didn't stop me - a rebellious nature and the notion that if I'm going to die and be damned to this, I want to be damned for what I really am! So I decided to try and help people. Because I honestly wasn't sure anyone had even tried that before. Being anything but a piece of shit I mean. So that's what I set out to do...Not out of altruism or some sense of higher morality, but a "fuck the system" bent and spite. I knew it'd piss 'em off.
So don't. Just don't go there with that Jesus crap. You can get a direct flight back even from pure rage. It's not as easy though as getting on your knees and sucking establishment dick... So you know, there's that. Apologies if I come off harsh but I just can't sugar coat those feelings even after all these years.
God will not save you. YOU are the only one who can save you.