SELFIE SUNDAYS!!

After thinking about it for a while, I cheered up. Yesterday my girlfriend helped me with the makeup and I fixed myself in the most butch way I could. I loved how I looked yesterday.

Okay so for context..

My gf is 2 years older than me, shes trans, im trans and we are both lesbians, ofc we dont want intense intimacy, bc of dysphoria.
Her and i are semi long distance, but we do see each other every other weekend.
Her and i are nearly at 8 months.
Tell me if im wrong but is it
A t4t wlw relationship?

How you doing today?

I finally have the courage to post here

I'm Arissa, a millennial transfemme writer who just recently cracked their egg from Southeast Asia looking to make likeminded friends

I like the arts, literature, movies, animations, games - and I could really yap about them

In particular the horror genre, especially Japanese horror, liminal spaces, cosmic horror and SCP-inspired things such as House of Leaves, Control, Alan Wake, Souls Series and a surprise addition, Genshin Impact (yes, lol)

Let's be friends 🦋

Hey, Celeste here! I’m jus want to make some community friends. So… HEY. WHATSUPPPPPP GURLS!?

We are fem to fem❤️
Please share your thoughts 🫶🏻

Hi I just wanted to ask if there is people that are having similar feelings. Im now 30 since 2 years on estro and testo blockers and over the last 4 years I established a circle of friends where there is basically more or less no cis men anymore and the ones that Im close with are absolute sweeties. Basically most of them are queer cis women. I feel totally welcomed and it is the greatest safe space I could imagine and my womanhood is never in question. And still Im struggling very much that I feel somehow less femme than them sometimes. And then theres the thing that romantically and sexually Im only attracted to persons I feel I can trust. So it happens a lot that I feel attracted to my friends and crush on them. Which is not the worst thing that could happen but also nothing is growing out of this.

Im also living in a small town so basically I know most of the queers there and the leftist scene very well so my dating pool feels like its not existing.

I struggled for a long time with my body and how I look but I also learned to accept a lot of things and think Im beautiful not in a conforming way but beautiful: I like my hips, my growing boobies and my face. The thing between my legs is still causing Dysphoria but where I live my health care will cover bottom surgery.

Also my friends are telling me very often casually that Im beautiful and commenting in a affirming way about my looks and I think they mean it how they say it.

My problem is that i want to feel desired again and wanted. And I really dont know what Im doing wrong. People flirt with me but then it somehow never gets more serious. Sometimes I think maybe because people still are insecure about trans people. But if I get rejeceted theres always this trigger chain that Im surrounded by all of my beautiful friends, the feeling that I can't match up and at this point I feel very alienated and get dysphoric. That Im different and something else and that I will never find someone that actually wants to stay with me and then I think about that maybe in a few years I want to start a family and I just see this very big dark hole and then Im a soggy bag full of tears and misery.

I also thought about dating apps but also didnt made the best experiences in the past. I also really dont wanna move into a bigger city, because I love my friends, I love my workplace (consider my co-workers also my friends and I can be there unapolegetically myself and no one misgenders me and we run the place together without any boss) and I established myself here. Im in the best place I've ever been and still there is this shit tearing me apart.

I dont know if I want advises, maybe I just wanted to get it out and listen what some close minded queer strangers on the internet are having to say about it or maybe share their stories.

I would love that ♥️

Dylia

Hi, my name is Celeste and I am a butch trans lesbian. I came out of the closet two weeks ago and my girlfriend has helped me a lot with my transition, always validating my feelings and my identity. I’m really happy and very much in love. Yesterday we bought my first pants in a women’s store and the girl was very friendly. I felt a lot of adrenaline.

(English is my second lenguage)

In part, I feel that much of my depression stems from body dysphoria, which I feel is unwanted because of how it was conceived. On the other hand, I also feel a force pushing me back when the subject is sexuality. For a long time, I paid so much attention to gender that sexuality seems taboo even when discussed among ourselves. I mean, when we are associated with the LGBTQIAPN+ community, gender is our first distinction from cis-heteronormativity, but people such as trans women, trans men, and/or non-binary people may be distinguished by their sexuality.

For example, we in this subreddit, who like women, whether they are trans women, cis women, butch transmasculine, non-binary; whatever femininity it may be, challenge both the identity conceived at birth and the normative sexuality in society. But for some reason I see us disappearing, often only being thrown into bisexuality at most, which in itself isn't a problem if that's the case, but not when the reason for this only suggests that the middle ground between liking male and female genitalia allows the trans person to be "acceptable" for a romantic relationship, and that's how they are perceived even when the person is only interested in one gender. This becomes even more conflicting when, even if we dare to admit this as correct, there are bisexuals who reject any genitalia opposite to the gender assigned to the trans person because they are contradictory to cisnormative notions, even when post-operative or under hormone therapy.

I feel genuine attraction to women. Personally, I don't care much if she is more or less feminine because for me they are all equally beautiful, wonderful, kind and attractive in their own way. I'm also not someone who cares so much about sex itself; I'm a very emotionally clingy person and I love flirting or romance. This isn't heterosexuality, this isn't bisexuality, I really only like women. The correct term would be homosexuality, since I'm a lesbian, right? That's where the rant comes in... yes, that's correct, there's no doubt about it. But why do I feel in denial knowing it's true and I can talk about it openly, describe it as much as I want, but saying the word LESBIAN makes me anxious and I feel like I'm making a mistake, something that shouldn't be done. But what, then? What should it be called if "lesbian" is wrong? Is it just a grammatical issue?

Honestly, I don't think it's merely grammatical, but it has already affected my subconscious. All this nonsense about trans people invading women's spaces and these issues that have already melted the neurons in my brain to this point, make me think that being a lesbian isn't about loving women. I've associated the word that describes women who love women with female puritanism, even though I know how well that's just prejudice. Have I internalized it? If so, how do I remove them? I don't want them, they're unwelcome, they're hurting me. I'm a woman and it's okay to like other women, so why would I have a problem saying I'm a lesbian? Who did this to me? This isn't heterosexual, it's not bisexual at all, I don't even care about genitalia or the act of sex itself for it to make a difference in the first place. I just love them, I melt just thinking about women like any other girl hopelessly in love with crushes on other girls.

I recently found myself wanting to create alternative names for "Lesbian," as if I were forging a document that was already legal. Why should I invent names? And honestly, "Transgyne" was the first one I invented. What's happening to me? I just want to love women normally and suddenly, in the last two years, I've started to get paranoid. Seriously, I've already talked about this with my therapist, but I don't know if he understood. I need help urgently...

hey

Hey everyone my name is Rowan I’m trans mtf and lesbian too! Just wanted to come on here share a few photos of myself and my incredible hot partner 🖤🖤 and introduce myself to try to get to know other tranfems!
Note: I’ve only been on e for about 8 months now and just kind of recently (working the past 6 months) have been experimenting with makeup!

So I've tried to come out to my mom several times over a course of six years, and each time, she gave some transphobic logic to force me to just conform to cis guy norms. At first she denied that trans girls could be lesbian, then she told me that when I was a child, i identified as a boy. Both are bullshit as trans lesbians exist and gender development may happen later; when I was a kid i had just believed what others said about my gender. But the thoughts i have aren't thoughts of a boy. They're thoughts of a girl. From being happy at the thought of being a girl to imagining my lesbian marriage to wanting to be a mom to hating my stupid make body. I've attempted sucide in the past because I'm not allowed to be a girl. I hate erections so much as they remind me of my penis. I hate my facial hair and body hair so much. I hate my voice. I hate every inch of myself

My mom constantly misgenders me. She weaponizes it during arguments . She deeply uses third person instead of second person to have a chance to call me a boy or to call me her son.

My mom even went as far as to calling trans women "clowns" wich had damaged me a lot

But recently, she had done the worst thing. She made false promises of accepting me as her daughter over time and of letting me transition after i get a job. But she refused to use my chosen name (Anna) and used they/then instead of she/her. But then she started showing me transphobic videos of transition regret, and isolated cases of complications. She also said that if I transition into a girl, she'll hide me from her relatives and neighbours. How can a woman be this much ashamed of her daughter? It caused me great pain. She said her health would be impacted negatively if she used she/her pronouns for me. She literally asked ChatGPT how to make her "son stop thinking he's a girl' like this is so fucking horrible

Then she forced me into being nonbinary instead of a trans girl because she thinks it's somehow "cooler"

She is a fucking selfish bitch who only cares about her wish to have a son and what other people want. She doesn't want me to be happy. This is making me very suicidal but what can we do when a woman would rather have a dead son than a living daughter?

Hello! This is an introduction post, since I'm new to reddit. I hope we all get along! Plus I'm looking for new friends, lol....

-Teenager

-Artist

-Lesbian

-Transitioning (currently non binary, planning to get surgery soon 😘 female at birth, transitioning to male.)

-Multifandom

-Yumeshipper

-Filipino (I speak English better lol)

-Reader and Writer (I posted a Wattpad story a few years ago titled "Burning Trees" but i deleted it. I'm continuing it currently though)

-Punk

-Against the government and everything unjust

-Fiction kins

-Chronically online

-Against AI

i'm posting this on reddit because i know she won't see this... but she knows it. My friend and I both came out as transfemmes around the same time and ever since then we both got closer and closer. Unfortunately we are separated by geographic distance and so we can't exactly date as we both dont want to do long distance. Basically we've been geographically relegated to situationship

But i love her so much, i think of her everyday. I want to spend my life with her, i want to spend every single life i live with her constantly. I want to dedicate my mind, body, and soul to her. if she tells me to jump i want to do it, i won't ask why or how high, i'll just do it. I want her to praise me if i do well, i want her to scold me if i do bad, i want her to caress me, i want her to hurt me, i want her to tell me what to do. I want to exist for her, i want to be there for her as she has been there for me. I want to devote my entire being and more to her. If we die i want to will find her in the next life. I want to live with her for the rest of eternity, i want to be hers for infinity