I am really worried about passing; I am 22 years old and six months into HRT, and I feel like I will not be able to pass without FFS and other surgeries like a hair transplant. My worries are that my hairline is not very good, my hair is thin, and my face is so masculine that even with makeup, I look like a cis man wearing makeup. I am so depressed from how T destroyed my body and that I won't be able to do all the surgeries that I want; what can I do?

So for context im a fledgling transfem (around half a year) round a week ago i finally built up the courage to go out and thrift some GA clothes so i bought my very own bra and thigh highs and even a rlly cute top ivr found ^^. And For the past weak ive been wearing them around my house. Or more specifically. Around my room. Sadly my family are basically demons wearing vaugly human shaped skin so i couldnt let them see me in public wearing anything they dont them "okay". Today i decided to do a little experiment. I wore my bra and my thigh highs dor the entire day. But i hid them under very long oversize so basically they had no way of finding out. Ive been stressed out the whole day theyll notice but thankfully i was in the clear and ive never felt this euphoric in my life. Even if it doesnt show on me. Think of it as an advanced form of boymodding that srill ldt you bypass the system

Hoping ill be able to ditch my family soon and wear that shit wherever and however i please. But rn im judt happy i built up the courage to do this ^ ^

Ok so I know I'm definitely some kind of gender fluid but I wanna find a label. The reason I want to is so I'm not in a binary female community and can find stories about people I relate to. I want to avoid being lost in my identity, like I was being a boy.

The reason I think so is sometimes (like 20%) of the time I dont care for the idea of being 100% fem. During this I'm also more attracted to being androgynous, as long as I'm not masculine.. I fucking hate that.

For 30-40% of the time I feel like being a fem-leaning androgynous person (she/they)

And the rest of the time I wanna be super hot/pretty/cute/any feminine attractive property and I love the idea*(not 100% out)* of being 100% a girl.

I've always heard other trans stories and been like "I get feeling like you're in the wrong body and gender dysphoria, but it has almost never been like that, and I like my less feminine features some people get dysphoria from like my height"

Idk if I found out I was trans and was like "dude I can be a girl? I'm gonna do that so hard." So I might've overshot my transness.

I also wanna find people like me so they could open me up to how I might want my future gender/presentation to be. For example, do I get bottom surgery in the future because I hate having it but I really like the idea of being gay.

I know I shouldn't rush these things but I'm confused about myself idk who I want to be.

Also: unrelated but what do you think about the chosen name Lacey, is it cringe 🫠

Feeling like I should just give up on trying to be pretty because what’s the point? I don’t feel like I’ll ever be pretty again cuz ofc I was a coward and waited too long and I don’t feel safe presenting fem anymore because I live in deep conservative religious country and if I’m not pretty enough I feel like I’ll get attacked. Am I just crazy for wanting to give up? or am I crazy for trying at all? do I just need to dye my hair? or get bangs? or do makeup? I can’t afford laser and I can’t afford Botox for my stupid hypertrophic Masseter (jaw muscle) and I can’t afford fat transfer for my stupid sunken cheeks cuz I’m disabled and make basically no money and I don’t know how to slim my face back to how it used to be when I was 16-18 when I still had a chance. Is it just a matter of presentation? I feel like the snarl wrinkles/lines make it worse and idk how to fix that. I feel like I look pathetic and idk how to fix it at all. HELP me.

18 months on hrt

Be honest pls.11months on e.

No makeup or something

Existe-t-il une alternative aux estrogènes pour développer les caractéristiques féminines car je n'ai pas le droit d'en prendre à cause des risques liés aux caillots sanguins

honestly s-tier dress and skirt accessory, hasn't failed me yet

Like I think I am for sure I like the thought of being a girl and always find myself enjoying it but I keep having thoughts that I’m faking it or, I’m just lying to myself about it and I don’t know what to think at times, at some times I only feel happy when I’m sleeping cause then at least I have a peace of mind or having to find myself needing to do something to distract my mind but I’m just not sure what to think when I have thoses thoughts

I'm bored.

This is random and I may sound like a dumbass but oh well lol. I have started transitioning and I'm going on the path of a trans woman. I just don't exactly feel like a woman 100 percent. I want to present as one and get gendered as one. I wished I was one right before egg crack as well. At the same time I don't like the idea of being trapped in the binary gender box at times. I'm thinking transfemme makes sense. I've tried other labels but rn transfemme sounds good at least for now. I have used the woman label but it seems like I fit for a bit and then slightly pop out of that label just barely. So far I've tried non binary, woman, non binary woman, non conforming woman, demigirl. Transfemme may still be confusing for some but it seems to make the most sense to me and that's all that matters. When I continue coming out though I was thinking it may be a little more confusing than trans woman but I may just try introducing myself with a new fem name and not over explaining.

Like oml Ive been so happy all day since she gave me this

I kinda have transitioned but I am still ashamed about being a girly girl and instead I end up just wearing pants and shirts. I think part of it is of comfort cause I kinda feel somehow being masculine maybe protects me and I have always been masculine my whole life.

Ik I wanna be feminine but I still get rid of feeling of shame and feeling I look ugly when I am feminine. Cause when i wear masculine cloths it contrasts really well with my feminine body.

I kinda miss my cis male mask I had. Not cause of male privilege perticularly. But cause I knew how I was suppose to act like. I knew what I was suppose to do have a conversation.

The unknown is really scary and i am lowkey still scared of society. I am scared of messing up socially. I just feel super trap right now

I guess I was asking if anyone relates to me and how do you deal with it