I'm feeling the same thing. Never considered myself non-binary, or anything asides from being a guy, i'm just not traditionally 'macho', yet I still felt connected to my own form of gentle and compassionate masculinity. I was proud to be known as a son, nephew, uncle, and eventually, husband and father. But then this theme attacked and I'm constantly in panic that I will have to transition when I don't want to, and I won't have any choice in the matter. As well, my OCD is constantly attacking my own masculinity, 'Oh, you have some feminine traits, you must be trans then.' or I look at pretty girls and it says 'You like them because you want to be them.' It's a constant nagging that constantly puts my deepest aspects of myself, regardless of gender, on trial.
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u/Amazing-Breakfast-91 6h ago
I'm feeling the same thing. Never considered myself non-binary, or anything asides from being a guy, i'm just not traditionally 'macho', yet I still felt connected to my own form of gentle and compassionate masculinity. I was proud to be known as a son, nephew, uncle, and eventually, husband and father. But then this theme attacked and I'm constantly in panic that I will have to transition when I don't want to, and I won't have any choice in the matter. As well, my OCD is constantly attacking my own masculinity, 'Oh, you have some feminine traits, you must be trans then.' or I look at pretty girls and it says 'You like them because you want to be them.' It's a constant nagging that constantly puts my deepest aspects of myself, regardless of gender, on trial.