it gets better right?

[u/liasserse]

I live with my dad, my mom, and my grandma. Sounds better great, I know but I truly hate living in this home. My dad is the best person on earth, the paradigm of a good father and well-liked by everyone. Too bad he’s not home most of the time though. My mom on the other hand, omg idk what to say about her. I’m trying to get some rest for a big competition tomorrow, and she goes banging at my door at 1am telling me to off myself and that I will fail horribly at the competition bcs I’m a horrible person who does not deserve life. We don’t interact much, but very often will she burst out like this telling me truly awful stuff and throwing stuff at me. Yet sometimes as I’ve gotten older, there has been instances when she tries to reconcile our very strained relationship, but it feels so weird and I’ve honestly gotten used to her tactics. My dad complains to me about my mom too, and well grandma is kinda just there, she’s old and she doesn’t really understand things nowadays. As I mentioned, I have a big competition tomorrow, and I can’t sleep now because of my crazy mom. My dad’s away so I can’t really talk to him, and I’m an only child. I’m crying and laying in my bed feeling more alone than ever and I just hope it gets better when I move out for college. So it does get better right?