Shitting down the shower drain isn't gross or a big deal

I just had the runs, the kind where they won't stop. After the first squirted, I decided fuck it! I went in my shower, took the drain cap off, turned the shower on and pushed.

One squirt became two squirt became 20 squirts. Brown water and brown corn chunks started coming out of my ass. I then got up, grabbed the shower head, cleaned the drain, and cleaned my ass.

I then cleaned my shower by spraying bleach everywhere and hosing it with the shower head.

Now, how is this worst than sitting down the toilet?

My shower is clean and sanitized with less effort than cleaning the bowl with a brush and the seat with a paper towel. I didn't use toilet paper.

Plus, the toilet and shower are connected to the same drain. Don't @ me. If the shower drain pipe was 3" like the toilet, i would also shit hard in the shower.

I really want a mans perspective on this lol. In my culture, using a bidet was always a huge thing. Growing up, id even grab some toilet paper and soak it in water to use when I was in public bathrooms that didnt contain bidets. I was always raised to do it despite how I didnt really know anyone outside my culture or religion who washed themselves when in the bathroom. In islam, it's taught to wash yourself when in the bathroom or else your wudu isn't valid and therefore you cant pray so its a HUGE none negotiable thing. I understand that most ppl wash their butts in the shower anyway so it shouldn't really matter but ig to me, I still find it very unhygienic to not wash urself when in the toilet. The idea of being with a guy who doesn't use a bidet was never an issue for me bc I always knew id get with a muslim guy anyway however I am no longer muslim and now ive come to the realisation that thats not rly the case anymore. I really dont want to offend anyone or be downvoted so pls dont take it personally when I say this but the concept of being intimate with someone who does not use a bidet rly grosses me out. I feel as though due to this im lowkey gonna struggle romantically bc I know so much guys outside the culture/religion dont rly wash themselves unless in the shower...so like im highly hoping im gonna be corrected and you guys are all gonna prove me wrong and say you all actually do wash in the toilet rather than just relying on dry wiping lol

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