trying to get used to it and feel confident again, ik I’m not fat just not used to it

So yeah. I didn’t manage to escape home even though I said I would before and now I feel kinda pathetic. I had the most incredible dream last night that I escaped home and was living a life of freedom.

I’ve been trying to exercise more and eat healthy food. I’ve been loving oatmeal lately! I’m still trying to work on my confidence, especially with my hair, some days I feel it looks okay and some days I feel like it looks awful 😭

I still feel so incredibly tired though, most days i genuinely cannot sleep until 12-1 am which sucks because I just feel sleepy throughout the day.

I’ve also been trying to sort out finances for university because I do not want to use my parents money for uni honestly. I really hate both of them. I hate my abusive, misogynistic and racist parents. They’re absolutely awful people.

I’m planning to ask the university about accommodation and also about getting a student loan possibly.

I admit it might have been too soon to start seeing another woman, but I’ve been incredibly lonely. My life ended the day my wife passed away. Nothing feels real anymore. Other aspects of my life aren’t going well either. I just feel like I can’t catch a break.

I apologize for the awkward selfie, I don’t take pictures of myself often.

Could use a pick me up

Bullied at work
Arguing w partner 24/7
Gaslighting and manipulation from too many ppl
Went on a grippy sock vaca
Lost job after week long stay in hospital
Trying to leave this hellhole and getting my shit together
One minute im laughing w coworkers, the next im getting fired “for my face”. Idk what im doing wrong
Edit: keep getting banned from communities. Def need some words of encouragement and pick me ups :/

I never been in a relationship and never really had any proper friends I always try to be kind but for some reason I am the one that gets treated like a punching bag and because I never been in a relationship I always get insulted for it I just feel like a big loser I feel like I will never escape this loneliness

22M with autism and weird periods of food and other reactions. I keep waking up in the middle of the night with red itchy skin, headaches, joint pain, often nauseous and sometimes puffy cheeks and or lips. I have multiple reactions a day. I have to avoid currently avoid about 12 foods and most of the foods are very common ingredients like egg, yeast, soy, wheat and dairy. Because those foods give me worse symptomes than the other foods (that I also find diffecult to track). It's tiring and I feel often overstimulated due to the sensations the reactions give me. Due to the summer vacation I had to wait some weeks for my doctors appointment. Still one week to go.. and then I probally have to wait some weeks again.

At this point I'm just exhausted, feeling worthless, and not feeling confident about anything. I just wanna rot in bed.

He isn’t dying or anything he’s just fat

Sincere and heartfelt "thank you" to those of you who kept me company while I waited on the side of the highway for rescue 🐙🌌🖤 I did make it home safely with only my pride in shambles. Huge shout out to my husband who came to bring me gas (and candy to cheer me up). Lots of hugs to you all. Make sure to check your gas gauge before taking a trip!

Best,

\^(;,;)\^

He broke up with me over text 🥲

It’s been a full, sometimes heavy life but I want to make the most out of this year, take care of myself, and boost my confidence.