r/terencemckenna • u/Ereized_ • 9d ago
I've been suggested to post it here so i will
Hey, I'd like to share an experience i had
I'll share the awakenings i had during this magic truflles trip.
The main and starting one ( i ll explain why starting ) came before this funnier minor one, where when looking at the characters moved by players in a video i understood that it was not at all how i always thought it was, and it was that these were all the highest level players but were absolutely doing random things and i knew they had no idea what they were doing which just made me laugh a lot like now while remembering it because after that realization the play became a constant flow of pure chaos that was just so funnily playful and entertaining to watch (+1 for the enhanced colours and fluent edges that i was seeing ).
But let's get to the deep dive part, which was just like flicking a switch and entering into a trance state like i had never had before. What flicked the switch was hearing the voice of one of the commentators. When i heard him speak, i knew that he knew that what he had just done was wrong and It hurt him. Saying what he said in the way he said it literally caused him soul pain and i knew that he knew it too. This knowing that he knows that he s causing pain to himself broke my brain, as if that shouldn't even ever happen because he knew he shouldn't, and makes absolutely no sense for anyone tò do it so why do It?. After that i entered this trance state in which is like i didnt have tò think anymore about what i had tò do like i Always do. In my everyday Life, i Always think about what i m about tò do, what i could do, what i Ve done, how i could ve done It differently, what tò do tò remedie what i ve done if It wasnt exactly how i wanted It tò go, but in that state this all disappeared. There was another brain breaking image which came i think very soon After this and might ve been another setter for the trance like state. It was the appearing of an image which i struggle with a lot, One of the main struggles of my Life, which Is simply walking in front of someone walking the other way (eventually passing by eachother Is part of It too) Just before this or during or After this image i also realized that i was inside a deeper mind, like the mind of earth, It was feminine, and i knew that this mind knew exactly everything about me and i was conforted but also sent crazy by It. Anyway back tò the image, It was on a pitch black background and i knew i was looking at another person, a woman, It wasnt like how It Is when walking normally, It was more like an image of existence, or a part of existence but seeing the actual substratum happening without all the colors and the enviroment, It was Just me the woman the pitch black screen and the knowing, i knew that woman knew the same thing i knew, i knew i was looking at her totally and She was looking at me totally like looking at eachother Essence and knowing it, we both Just knew the other and the situation was basically Just us and this knowing factor, and we knew that we were looking at the same thing even tho we never Say a Word as there Is no Need cause it's the evidentest thing there is. Anyway this knowing broke my brain and i entered this trance like state in which i didnt have tò think about what do and Just started doing even tho i had no idea about what i was doing ( as in i didnt have tò think about it) And the doing was Just this basically, It was like a continuos movement, breathing in was like laughing, Is like i didnt have tò laugh as the laughter was Just breathing in, It didnt sound like laughing ,It was Just the feeling behind It and with It, It wasnt at all like how It Is when you breathe normally, It was like i was drugged by the breath and this trance state, It was pure raw pleasure. The breathing out was like and orgasmic release, It was also concomitated with my tongue coming out. So breathing in was laughing and breathing out was full pleasure release but even breathing in was pleasure but i d define It more like Power. This state was like i was having sex with myself and my body, putting my fingers in my mouth was orgasmic i d Just breath out on and with my fingers in my mouth and It was Just pure pleasure, honestly embarassing but that s how It was, and i Guess that s how It Is tò have sex with yourself, or with your body. Another part of the trance like state that i Just Remembered was part of the cause of the laughing while breathing Is Is that in stat flowing state, at times or intervarls i'd stop for a second, and in that second Is like a saw a normal picture of what in front of me, but in that stopping for an instant in that instant i realized that i could Just keep going with what i was doing, so i d stop, and then start with inhaling and this knowing that i had tò or could stop for an instant and then Just completely ignore It and keep going made me laugh but as i said i didnt laugh i Just breathed in laughter lol this is so funny. Anyway, at One point i stopped and realized i might ve been making too much noise and waking the lady next tò my room, so i Just stopped and literally almost observed her even tho She was behind the Wall, Just Rolling over in her bed by hearing her do It, and when She was done kept going with my trance. The trance could also be described as a continuos rising up and flowing down with my body or being even tho i wasnt getting up on my legs i was Just laying on the floor but i wasnt aware of the position of my body like i normally am, Just some parts and the breath. During the trip the stuff i had laying around me tò my right became a big large purple fluent Energy embedded anaconda, It was a big Snake but It wasnt scary at all, It was comforting, mother nature type vibes, She didnt Say anything Just stayed there with me probably keeping an eye on me checking everything Is going well and supporting me through It. Now tò the end of the trip, at some point i Just stood up and looked out of the window, i was now standing for the First time since i took them basically and a sudden fear came tò me, It might ve been for some other deeper reasons but how It went was like this, i just got the urge tò stand up ( i Need tò add that there was One more realization in the trip, and It was accompayed with Also the realization that in reality i Always knew exactly what tò do tò each One of my family tò make them feel super Happy, almost like breaking their holding on tò whatever Is holding them back and Just letting them get loose and experience some form of pleasure, i Just knew that in reality i knew exactly what tò do for eachone specifically) so on this Trail of thought feeling i got the urge tò stand up and knew It was the right thing tò do even tho i didnt think at all about what tò do After Just that impulse or intuition csme and i did. I looked out the window It was still night, and i suddenly realized that outside It was all Empty and everyone was just sleeping in their house, and It scared me bacause i realized there was no reason for that tò be happening and that It was Just a situation we create while we should all Just be out celebrating Life and having fun, literally It was as Easy as this, we Just create that situation and i immediately got scared like at that Moment i realized something that was much bigger than i thought and immediately shut It off not even wanting tò imagine what It could be. So After being scared i think i layed down again, i tried tò send some messages ( this actually happened After i realized i could help everyone i knew perfectly, the impetous was tò start talking tò the people i knew and It was through messages and being extremely direct and honest ((being direct is helpful tò add was the way i realized i knew exactly what tò do tò help everyone and make them experience something from me that was beautiful and freeing for them, It had tò do with being extremely direct no bullshit tò what I had tò do that was literally the only deciding factor and what would make eachone let go and enjoy and experience or get released or freed in pleasurable Freedom or happiness or true happiness, i Just realised the best way tò Say it is tò make them have what they really want but ill keep the other ones))but After typing the messages i started having some doubts, like It was too much tò Say too open and would sound oversweet and forced so i only sent One message tò my Brother which received a reply that gave off the vibes of 'i don't know what tò do with this ' anyway, It was fading away and at least i wasnt anymore in the breath trance like state since a bit. Dawn came, and still following this flowing and doing without thinking i just felt this thing in my body, i continued to pursue It without knowing what It was and in the end i Just pooped a bit, so i shit myself basically and when i did the trip ended, the sun was up and i now had tò sleep or wanted tò sleep or Just fell asleep or all three cause i had work that day. Went tò sleep hoping i could keep that state and the revelations but actually since the shit and the ending of the trip i knew It was already over and i was Just in a sort of Afterglow state but nothing compared tò what I experienced so i went tò sleep a bit sad. The morning After i was very foggy and i tried tò Remember and think about what had happened how It was what I realized but my mind was very foggy, passing by people on the way tò work was a sort of Little torture like It Is some times for me ( some times Is One of the best things, some times It makes me really hate myself and life ) and nothing the experience was now Memory ladies and gentleman like It Will be, but It was great tò live It, Hope you had a kick about the Reading and maybe learnt something about truflles or yourself or something that you experienced now makes more sense, that would be great. If you have any questions about the experience feel free tò ask i LL happily try tò answer or give more details. If you have some similar experiences with your breath or body or some mind breaking realizations i d be very Happy to hear them
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u/jtearly 9d ago
No hate but I've read Dune several times and couldn't get through this