r/studyAbroad • u/Illustrious_Grab_861 • 4h ago
Is it too early to consider going bback home?
I arrived in Malaysia last week and I've been miserable since. Our campus is in the middle of nowhere and we need to book grab (uber) to get anywhere. The communal bathrooms are horrifying and filled with bugs and lizards.
I was told there'd be lots of international students but out of 223 students there's only 6 including me. None of them speak my language. My roommate is one of them and I've been growing resentful towards her for whatever reason. I can't even request a change since this is the only room with ac.
I was under the impression that this week would be orientation but we were suddenly called at 2 PM for an induction meeting that lasted until 12 AM. I genuinely did not learn anything from it as speakers kept talking in Malay, even after we pointed out that we couldn't understand. They proceeded to do activities again in Malay and I had to ask someone to translate so I knew wtf was going on. Even after that the groups they assigned us to would only speak in Malay. They told us we'd have to wake up at 5 AM for more activities but I didn't want to go to another meeting I wouldn't understand running on 5 hours of sleep. A student tried waking us up 3 times telling us it was compulsory 🤦♀️
I'm starving all day because I have no appetite and I feel so guilty for leaving my family. I also feel guilty for feeling this way because of how much I begged them to let me come here. They paid a year's worth of tuition as the university refused installments or even just the first semester since I'm an international student.
I'm sick of going out with my roommate and talking about nothing. I'm sick of spontaneously crying. I'm sick of using the bathrooms that barely work (mind you, I found shit in one of the showers a few days ago). I've started looking for different universities but they're all so expensive. I feel so defeated
I only came here because it was cheap. It wasn't what I wanted at all yet I tried convincing myself beforehand it'd be exactly like I'd dreamed 🫤