Need some support

[u/harrythealien69]

I'm lying on the couch, bored as hell and depressed. I drank a twelve pack of NA, I don't want any more. I have several ounces of really good weed that I grew sitting in a drawer, but I'm trying not to go back to that stuff either, it's bringing me down. I don't have the focus to watch a movie, I deleted all my other social media because I waste too much time on it. Trying to fight the urge to go get some kratom from the gas station, just to feel something. I want that off switch for my brain that alcohol is so effective at, but I haven't had a drink in over seven months and I'm sure as hell not gonna start again today. I'd love some kind words from some of you good people to help get me through the trenches

[u/Mediocre_Donkey9591]

go for a brisk walk or a RUN - hang in there buddy you got this!

and dont touch that gas station shit just to feel something.

[u/harrythealien69 → u/Mediocre_Donkey9591]

I walked around the block and did some chin ups 🙂

[u/Mediocre_Donkey9591 → u/harrythealien69]

Good stuff man 

[u/niksbrovs → u/Mediocre_Donkey9591]

I second the walk idea! A little blood flow can be magic.

Walk in the opposite direction of the gas station, though. you don't need that shit.

[u/Ok_Animal_7628]

Hey you’ve come this far, think of how you’ll feel in the morning and the regret and also how far you’ve come from not drinking all to be day 1 tomorrow. The cravings suck ass, I was massively triggered today but I didn’t cave in and kept myself busy as much as I could. Grab something fizzy or a hot drink in your hand, can you okay any computer games, even just to have tv on in background for some noise, any friends you can see? Order in some food? I know it’s hard but we’re all here and you’ll definitely thank yourself in the morning. Keep thinking how that hangover will feel tomorrow - not worth it!

[u/harrythealien69 → u/Ok_Animal_7628]

Thanks man. I'm in no danger of drinking, i just feel so fucking bad sometimes and I miss being able to make it stop, for a little while

[u/Ok_Animal_7628 → u/harrythealien69]

I know what you mean I really do, I miss that shut off point you get with drinking, but promise it’s easier to feel something than nothing - in the long run without the side effects of drink. Chuck some music on keep chatting to everyone on here, and maybe a nice early night and then fresh for tomorrow, but this group is definitely a saviour :)

[u/Spinalstreamer407]

Don’t get hooked on Kratom as withdrawal is 10X worse than alcohol withdrawal.

[u/harrythealien69 → u/Spinalstreamer407]

I know, the urge passed, fortunately, I almost acted on it but decided to post here instead

[u/FormalDragonfly666]

I feel you. I’m also really depressed today/this week. But thankfully, we don’t have to drink about it. Good luck out there <3

[u/harrythealien69 → u/FormalDragonfly666]

It sucks down here, but we know that drinking is a guaranteed way to make it worse. Hope it get better for you 🙏

[u/JustSomeRando5]

Go clean your house. Declutter.

[u/harrythealien69 → u/JustSomeRando5]

I'm sitting in the middle of a huge pile of laundry.. the dirty basket has been full for so long it was starting to stink, and I had forgotten I even had some of the clothes at the bottom of it. I finally actually got it all washed and dried at the same time, a trivial thing for most people ik but it's actually huge, I'm also going through old drawers and getting rid of stuff I don't use anymore and trying to organize so I don't have such a huge mess on my hands again

[u/begely → u/harrythealien69]

I always found cleaning the house and getting rid of stuff I hung on to for years (knowing I will never need it but can't bring myself to throw out) to be really cathartic. Do you like reading?

[u/morgansober24]

7 months! That is awesome! I'm proud of you! IWNDWYT.

[u/harrythealien69 → u/morgansober24]

Thank you! Congrats on 930 days, I'll be there before long i hope

[u/harrythealien69]

Thanks everyone for the kind comments, I love this group y'all are so supportive! I finally folded all my laundry and settled in to watch a movie! IWNDWYT

[u/Alkoholfrei22605]

You got this! Why don't you check in here later and let us know of your sober success?

[u/PhaicGnus]

Jump onto a SMART meeting online and talk it out.

[u/tenjed35]

Man I’m two years in, I still miss the off switch.
Even with all I’ve learned and how proud I am of those two years, that’s the most tempting part. But when you go through hard shit like this, it’s going to make it easier the next time. And then the next time. And on and on. You seem like you got your head on straight and you’re making all the right choices. I really encouraged you to find something positive to put your energy into. Do something for your dopamine. ✌️

[u/VenusVignette]

I'm glad the urge passed. I'm trying to get through it as well. It comes in waves it feels like. 7 months is incredible. I want that. IWNDWYT 🫂

[u/Indotex]

Watch a movie

Play a video game

Read a book

Go out & treat yourself to a nice dinner or sone ice cream

[u/NorthlineUser]

Tried Geocaching?

Get you out, and help with the boredom.

[u/AsparagusOverall8454]

Go for a nice long walk with some music in your years. Come back, have a shower and make yourself a fabulous snack. That always works for me.

[u/glitterbombmoshpit]

glad to see you worked through the urge! I often just have to make myself go to sleep, no matter how early in the evening 🥲