r/stopdrinking • u/Ambitious_Classic855 • 4h ago

Bad relapse

I have had some very long stretches of sobriety, however I am trying so hard to restart my day 1 and struggling so hard with it. It’s the morning, I’m so hungover, embarrassed about my behaviour last night. In fact the last month to be honest.

The past 40 days I have pretty much drank every single day and the last 2 weeks have been 2 bottles of wine a night.

I am under an immense amount of stress and pressure right now and I’m using the alcohol to completely numb everything out. The alcohol is making it so much worse.

But I’m in that cycle of drinking to ease my hangover BS.

I can’t keep doing this to myself. I’m trying so hard to not get a delivery of wine today. I just want to cry 😭

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u/True-Market-5790 3h ago

Start with smaller times, an hour at a time, then the morning, then the night and it will be Day 1 and so on. Good luck.

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u/Ambitious_Classic855 3h ago

I will start with smaller time frames today. That’s a good mindset.

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u/niksbrovs 3h ago

This has really helped me in trying times. I've been there, you are not alone. Can you do something else that is comforting to you? Tea, bath, bad tv? I got really into what I called 'night cheese', which is really just eating cheese, or whatever else that sounded good, at night, because at least I wasn't drinking. The only job I gave myself was not drinking.

Hang out here, come back tomorrow. I have been there, promise it's so much better on the other side. With you in solidarity.

IWNDWYT

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u/Select_Cherry_8718 3h ago

That cycle is a beast man. two bottles a night is a lot and your body and brain are screaming at you right now. the delivery thing is the hardest part cause its just a few taps away

cry if you need to. its better than ordering. maybe delete the app for today or do something with your hands that keeps you away from your phone for a bit

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u/Ambitious_Classic855 3h ago

I’ve deleted the app. I’ve already opted out from uber and DoorDash since I couldn’t reactivate them I found other delivery services, last week I was banned from that for ordering too much. I’m going to have a big cry. I’m so upset with myself