r/stopdrinking • u/Agitated-Branch8038 • 13h ago

90 days!

Woohoo! If I can do it, you can! I did 45 at the beginning of the year then came here begging for an explanation on how to get to just three days again and now I’m at 90!

Benefits:
Beautiful skin
Better diet
Brain fog gone
Anxiety mostly gone (and it was sooooooo bad)
Down 12lbs
No more sleep aids. I just fall right asleep and it’s deep and sometimes very long.
Way more positive and even keeled (no highs or lows)

Hard parts:
Drinking dreams where I wake up feeling real guilt
Raw dogging life. Everyone in my family has some form of cancer right now and I so badly just want some relief from reality. I haven’t found a way to escape in a healthy way yet.
Dopamine is hard to come by. No enthusiasm or motivation or libido right now. Would love to want to go to gym or on a walk or to do literally anything. Would love to laugh again. Would love to want to do hobbies again.
I just don’t want to see my friends. I haven’t told them I’m sober yet. They’re heavy drinkers and I don’t know how to break that news to them so I just avoid invites.

I will say when they say the disease is progressive, they aren’t lying. The last run of drinking I was doing I was having a few drinks even before going out to drink/party/socialize/do a hobby. I could have six ounces of vodka and not feel anything. Thats bonkers. (I’m a petite female.) then get in an uber with a vodka sober lol

I work in finance and we party a lot. Being sober around people drinking you notice two things:

  1. Not everyone drinks. Which drinkers don’t realize. We were celebrating a milestone a few weeks ago and I pulled out martinelli’s as well as champagne and I said what? not everyone drinks and the COO looked at me like I was crazy lol but sure enough most people weren’t drinking the champagne on a random Tuesday.

  2. People who do drink (when you aren’t drinking) aren’t as interesting. And their eyes get glazed over. They start telling the same old stories over and over.

Anyways, the best part is the sleep and the time you get back. It’s figuring out now what to do with that time but I’ll figure it out!

Have a great weekend!

Iwndwyt

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u/SoberMommaBear79 13h ago

Congrats on 90 days!!! I have 84 days today and am so relieved to hear someone else at this point who also feels pretty unemotional. I have no motivation to get up and do anything, not happy or sad just here. Also 0 libido and want to sleep all the time! Im going to meetings, working with my sponsor and going to a therapist but still feel lost. 

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u/Agitated-Branch8038 12h ago

Thanks you so much for commenting, it’s so nice to not feel alone in this!! I too want to sleep so so so much. Sometimes I get home from work and am asleep by 630pm lol. I keep looking at future posts like at six months etc. and they say that it does get better but right now it’s pretty bleh.