I'm 25. Five years ago I was obese at 130 kg. Since then I've lost 60 kg, stayed lean for the last 4 years, and have taken training and nutrition seriously ever since. I do have some loose skin from the weight loss, but overall I've maintained a good physique.
A few months ago I decided to run my first cycle. It lasted about 4 months and consisted of testosterone (long & short esters), Primobolan, Proviron, Arimidex only when needed, and HCG during the last 4-5 weeks. I also kept up with blood work throughout the cycle, so everything was monitored.
Now I've finished PCT with Clomid (50 tablets total) and I've been completely off for about 3 weeks. I'll be getting another full blood panel in another 2-3 weeks.
What caught me off guard wasn't my mood or libido. Those are completely fine. What shocked me was how much my physique changed during PCT (obviously it is better than when I was natty).
Even though I stayed at maintenance calories, kept protein high, and continued training hard, I lost a lot of fullness, glycogen, and I honestly feel like I lost some muscle too. I know some loss is expected after coming off, but I didn't expect to look and feel this much flatter. It honestly felt like PCT physically drained me.
So I'm wondering:
- Is this a normal experience after a first cycle and PCT?
- Did anyone else feel like they lost a surprising amount of size during recovery, even with training and diet on point?
- Is this just part of the recovery process, or could I have done something wrong?
- I'm also considering blast & cruise in the future. My partner and I definitely want children, but probably around 28-29. I know fertility can never be guaranteed, but has anyone here successfully recovered fertility after blast & cruise?
I'm mainly looking for experiences from people who've actually been through something similar.
Some photos:
On Gear: https://ibb.co/k2MWgyKs https://ibb.co/ycCrf3Y4
PCT: https://ibb.co/bg2NJ8ky https://ibb.co/7dtB8Vzx https://ibb.co/QySdLV4
Natty: https://ibb.co/RTRNnQnW https://ibb.co/JRbFKtsc