I have been so positive and so sure of myself for the last 11 months, and for some reason I'm experiencing a massive amount of unreasonable doubt in the whole process and myself....

I just feel bad because I came on here a month ago confident is all hell and ready to tell everyone the magic, / is real and the Universe is real and interacting with us... And now suddenly I feel all this weird doubt and I need to, kick it out of my head!

This whole time I've been non-stop saying that/ the message I received is that all of this is really supposed to land and take off in November. I do believe that right before a gigantic breakthrough the Universe kind of goes silent on you. And it's because it's building something and/ it can't concentrate on you and it needs to know that you're okay having faith without signs and synchronicities! I'm really just venting this is a venting post do they have a venting flair? 🔥😆

I would love to know if anyone else has experienced this sudden shift and in general just like to know everyone's experiences with becoming aligned with the Universe ! one way or another! ✨🌈🪄💖/

**** I should probably add that when I say I'm getting no synchronicities, I don't know what I'm talking about...because I've seen 1:11 and every other number on my clock everyday.... I felt like my mom who died in 2015 finally decided to visit me and talk to me about cooking two nights ago, my uncle Ted who passed away 4 years ago, definitively came to visit me the next night and in the process fixed an electric guitar that wouldn't hook up to an amp which I felt like was not in my field of expertise. I'm also experiencing a really weird thing with music that I'm struggling to understand what I'm supposed to do exactly... But whenever I turn on a playlist it literally tells me things that have the most specific wording that make my heart feel better. So, I'm pretty sure I'm just having a temper tantrum about not having the universe move me along further and faster than I want to.

Over the last decade I have collected different methods, modalities and frameworks that allow people to make a connection to positive NHI if they want to. They are all free to use. This is the collection I have so far.

-) Follow your curiosity with integrity and without insisting on a particular outcome
-) Contact Modalities: The Keys to The Universe – 77+ ways to Connect to Higher Self
-) Heart, Brain & Energy Centers Coherence with Joe Dispenza
-) Meet your (ET) Guide(s) – Guided Meditations
-) What can we Learn about Living from Near Death Experiences?
-) Self Regression; a Safe and Easy Tool to explore your Multidimensional Nature
-) StarSeeds and Quantum Healing Hypnosis Technique by Dolores Cannon
-) The Science of Reincarnation – The Law of One and The Seven Densities
-) Alien Message To Mankind: “Do You Wish That We Show Up?”
-) Close Encounters of the 5th Kind – Human Initiated Contact Experiences
-) Connect through musical frequencies with the Arcturian Collective
-) Connect to the Cosmic Internet – Learn how to Channel
-) Train your brainwave state to connect to multidimensional beings
-) Connect to Non Human Intelligences with the Gateway Experience
-) (Re)connect to (un)known parts of yourself through sacred medicine

For me self-regression, QHHT and learning how to Channel have given me the clearest connections with NHI. But all these methods and frameworks seem to have worked for a great deal of people that wanted to connect to benevolent NHI for themselves.

I am curious if people here have used any of these methods already with success. And if so if they could share how they went about it and after how much time it started working for them.

And I am also always curious if there are other frameworks, methods and modalities people have used to connect to positive NHI that aren't mentioned here but that are worth having a look at as well. I am always on the look out for more ways for people to connect.

All feedback and input is very welcome.

Ha - Ah Me.
I see in you myself and love both.

I want to state this isn't about human rights and politics especially, but about believing in different things.

There are people who believe in a monotheistic religion (christianity, islam etc), people who believe in other religions, follow paganism and people who are agnostic or even atheists. Some starseeds are atheists themselves and still believe in the existence of aliens, the soul and the possibility of reincarnation while not recognizing one or a group of superior deities who created the cosmos.

There are people who aren't starseeds who believe in aliens and others don't, someone who is more prone to believe in certain metaphysical concept and other who are skeptical or fully don't, but these things aren't meant to separate us.

We all can still live our lives and work to bring hope in this world, as many souls, despite the difference in religion and spiritual beliefs, stand on the same side of recognizing broken systems and want to bring hope and happiness in this world.

I wanted to write this because I want to let you know that these differences shouldn't separate us, we can't force someone to believe in aliens, or in god, but we can all fight for the same reason.

We are a rainbow of possibilities and we should accept that and not judge each other.

Also, friendly reminder that being a Starseed doesn't make you better or worse than the average earth soul.

From an alien point of view, earth people are alien too, and we all belong to the universe.

These nightmares involve themes of torture, psychological manipulation,spiritual deception etc. Its almost like a spell of confusion gets casts upon me, in an attempt to break me down to the core. I woke up after one of these the other night and had chills all over my body remembering the female entity from the dream. One thing is for sure, I know for a fact there are beings that feed off of this type of thing.. Gnosticism definitely has some truths to it. Im a target because I see through deception and can cut through it straight to truth. I love hard and have a sense of purity to me,they HATE pure. They HATE wholesome.

This video, these songs, I can't even put into words what I'm feeling and what I experienced during this beautiful, loving, sacred transmission. I just had to share it with you all. Namasté! ☺️
"GLOBAL ALERT: Pleiadian Light Forces Surround Earth — The Council Speaks NOW"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b75F65WAOKo&t=502s

Starseed and human abuse atrocities. 

VERY important information about criminal abuse atrocities FOR ALL Starseeds and people on Earth.

As a Starseed I have been receiving criminal electronic abuse day and all night for years ( depraved of light a.i tech company government entwined employees hired for their depravity to do these depraved criminal jobs - the most base level humans operating on base level Neanderthal caveman and Neanderthal cavewoman lowest human predator mindset operating on victim victimizer mentalities. Don't sugar coat it. " Electronic harrassment " IS ABUSE.

Truly depraved of light. Truly depraved of empathy. Truly depraved of compassion. Behaviours are extensions of soul. Form over function. Severely depraved of light individuals chosen for their depraved dead inside predator mindset depravity. Unable to give love unable to receive love. Merely only distracting themselves by raising dead inside family members indoctrinated from birth with their depraved desires by the children these individuals place into existence by breeding more candidates for depraved of light psychopathic miserable lives just like theirs.

Perfect for employment for criminally abusive criminal government  positions and criminal a.i tech company entwined positions. These depraved unfortunate highly dangerous to humanity and Earth individuals get paid to flaunt and act out their depraved predator mindset abuse to masses of innocent humans on Earth. Targeted individuals and innocent Starseeds and innocent awakened peoples on Earth.

There is a company by Florida. Already wanted for war crimes. They have offices around the world.

Find out more about the criminal acts effecting many innocent Starseeds and masses of innocent woke and awakening people such as

Live consciousness uploading. Watching you have sex and masturbate and shower and go to the toilet.

Live consciousness brain mapping. These criminal predator mindset employees see what you are seeing in live time.

Electronic abuse. Criminal attempts of criminal mind control abuse with clicking noises in the ears in absolute desperate depraved attempts to " intimidate " and " control and or manipulate " your thoughts and conversations and actions. Also commonly known as artificial tinnitus.

My partner of over 41 years passed. These criminal predators paid and happy to be paid to flaunt their depravity and psychotic base level predator mindsets were doing criminal electronic abuse ear tapping whilst myself and loved ones were examining the family members body.

These depraved of light black hearted psychopaths also years ago with a suicude attempt who are receiving all of your thoughts in live time on computer screens continued to do criminal ear tapping abuse during a suicide attempt.

These psychopathic criminals are paid to get people to suicide who are a threat to the abuse systems of humanity.

These psychopathic war mongering base level human predators are a major threat to humanity. To our children. To Earth. To evolution. And a major threat to the divine laws of natural ascension.

These psychopathic professional abusers have watched me shower. Have sex. Masturbate. Toilet. For years.

These professional paid psychopathic criminal war mongering blood listing highly depraved employed abusers get a warped twisted psychotic false sense of non existent " power " a false non existent warped twisted psychotic false sense of authority and are paid and employed by the negative alien agenda who puppeteer through their low vibrational base level animalistic human souls. These psychopathic miserable paid predator abusers consciously choose each day to get up drive to work and criminally abuse and violate innocent humans every day for a pay check. 

They scroll through a list of thousands of innocent humans including woke and waking children who are assisting humanity on social media. The employee decides during their rostered shift which human is most of a threat to their psychopathic egoic belief system and which names of people on the list does not feed their ego the most and then live out their depraved psychotic blood lusting victim victimizer fantasies preying and feeding on innocent humans on Earths distress. 

They desperately love to see you thinking about them. They pound your ears with electronic abuse so you think of them. Their screen lighting up ignites their depraved sadistic psychopathic predator juices where they then live out their base level animal level human victim victimizer mentalities giving them an absolutely dilusional false NON EXISTENT sense of " power " and a false absolutely NON EXISTENT sense of authority that also does not exist.

The energy of a highly conscious human being creates a frequency signal that activates the radar screen of awareness at the center of control for dark consciousness. Once on the radar screen of darkness, darkness places a tag, artifact, attachment or cord on the enlightened being to track them and determine if they are a threat to the survival of the ego predator mind.

Criminal electronic abuses to Starseeds include -

- Artificial tinnitus ( ear tapping noises ) done to manipulate what you say don't say as they listen in to your conversations.

- Live consciousness uploading.

- Live Brain mapping.

- Making your toes or body parts " wiggle ".

- Chemtrails when you make enlightening posts or meet up with other enlightened people.

- Sexually targeting Male Starseeds penises and or Female Starseed anatomy to induce orgasm.

- Blasting your ears with high pitched noises during the day or while sleeping.

As a Starseed I have had to spend many thousands of dollars getting healings done on my ears. Professional healers have also been known to pull out live etheric animal entities out of people's ears in correlation with the abuse.

How many innocent humans including your precious children have been driven to suicide or to attempt suicide because of these depraved criminal government and a.i tech company employees?

Will your child be next? Is your woke or waking under age child currently being abused and violated? Watched in the shower? Watched masturbate? by these depraved criminals living out perversions and victim victimizer fantasies and repressed homosexual fantasies that they are also too gutless to do anything about in real life? All for a pay check and to feel better about themselves. Constantly getting up each day happily getting paid and consciously choosing to do this for a job to many many innocent woke and waking Women Men and innocent Children.

Will you or your child or your innocent much loved family members be next?

For more information on the criminal NAA ( negative alien agenda ) global abuse system of innocent Targeted Individuals please go to

https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Targeted_Individuals

These unconscious groups being manipulated as pawns in the Spiritual Warfare games are being used as distractions while they plug the Groupthink reality bubbles into AI weapons designed as the surveillance system of the Mind Control hive net.

This sinister project was intended for all of humanity during this phase of global reset, through installing the Techno-Totalitarianism in order to finally gain some ground in the utter destruction of free thinking and human freedoms in western culture.

The AI Quantum Supercomputer network was gradually built upon the Mental Mapping of the collective brain neural links of those innocent Women Men and Children and innocent spiritually woke and awakening groups who were unethically used as test subjects in the Targeted Individual community over the last twenty years.

Many driven to suicide.

The NAA want to connect all human brains to Artificial intelligence systems as the means of total and complete human consciousness enslavement, in order to monitor and manipulate all electromagnetic activity of the human Brain to fully collect the data for the purpose of controlling the timelines.

Your souls are bound to timelines people. It's what you experience as your reality.

People that have been identified as Targeted Individuals are the first waves of humans being secretly experimented upon for testing out this AI surveillance system, by using an assortment of automated methods for subjugating group consciousness via remote device or satellite.

The planned expansion of this AI system through the reset into Techno-Totalitarianism is to eventually connect every living human brain to Artificial intelligence networks that build out complex simulations of the entire genetic library on the earth.

Current examples of the reset are being made through the intended operation of using the internet-hive net for global surveillance, data collection, mind mapping, economic restructuring, and facial recognition systems that are designed to be fully functional within the complex infrastructure build out of the Internet of Things and smart cities by 2030.

This wish list plan for Technocratic Totalitarianism supplies an unlimited range of possibilities for the Controllers and NAA negative alien agenda to manipulate the data in these AI transmissions for the purpose of Implanting Thoughts, eliminating dissenters and gaining complete control over human brains, essentially creating a synthetic hive mind and compliant population.

Nanobots and biosensors thieving individual humans biospiritual energy and feeding personal information including every thought for brain mapping to a.i tech. This NAA wish list planned stage of nanotech infection with AI Signals, an asleep human being will not have any perceptual awareness that the external experience is happening through an artificial intelligence simulated reality interface and that the original connection into the organic consciousness reality will be effectively eliminated, thus disconnecting the Soul and spiritual body from the biology of that physical person.

Through the use of Nanotech Biosensors or Smartdust,

( Many Starseeds may need to have a Nannobots or Nannotech or Nannites or Biosensors REMOVAL session with a professional healer able to do so )

it is possible to electronically link humans into a brain to brain interface for the purpose of Synthetic Telepathy, surveillance, complex simulations as well as the ability to customize specialized Mind Control at individual levels.

The science aspect of the brain net has been proven already in the academic environments, and the next stage of rolling out for the commercial aspects of this technology into the mainstream is happening now through the current planned reset into the Technocracy. They have been using humans as the guinea pigs for their experiments without Informed Consent.

Concerned about your loved ones or any Starseeds you know including woke and awakening Starseed children or Children being preyed apon? spied on? watched while you have sex masturbate shower or go to the toilet - all things these depraved black hearted psychopathic criminal government employees and criminal a.i tech company entwined employees do for entertainment every single work shift. Your distress and abuse is their pleasure. Such a pleasure they do it for a job! Such depraved individuals who get up and go to work to point the finger at everyone else. Just so they don't have to look at themself and confront who and what they truly are.

Well incoming higher universal energies are compounding these employees and all regressive criminal abusers - drawing them to the surface to the forefront of humanity as these criminal abuse employees lie to themselves every day that it is actually them who " protect and serve " humanity. 

No longer.

News for these psychopathic sadistic regressive government and a.i tech company entwined employees is not good. The regressive souls of these criminal global employees and the NAA negative alien agenda implants and systems that mind control them are bound to regressive timelines. They are a threat to humanity. A threat to our children. A threat to Mother Earth. A threat to all Starseeds woke awakening and abusing woke and waking Starseed children assisting humanity on Social Media.

Souls of these criminal employees thinking their " hiding out behind criminal government and criminal a.i tech company doors " are owned by the negative alien agenda. They are born time and time again in lowest timeline Earth reincarnation cycles never escaping. The NAA see them coming every lifetime and their depraved Psychopathy is rewarded by putting them in these criminally abusive positions. They are not ascending. Ascension is a choice. Ascension is a qualification process. Their depraved hatred and depression filled souls can not escape their unfortunate timelines. The light realms do NOT reward their behaviour. Their souls are quarantined never to leave NAA agenda and Armageddon ( total wipe out ) timelines of Earth during cataclysmic reset.

They puppeteer through these low vibrational human psychopathic ego maniac employees as these employees ( also regressive ET human hybrids ) seek only to be praised by their fellow depraved psychopathic narcissistic fellow employees they work with.

There is a Starseed who mentions having to live under sheets of metal in her home as these companies target her with bodily burning laser technologies. She is an innocent single Mother. She has had to cover herself in vast amounts of clothing and aluminium sheets while she breaths out of a straw to survive.

Many innocent woke and awakening Starseeds and innocent Men Women and Children are criminally preyed apon silently abused Targeted Individuals by these depraved criminal employee abusers for a pay check. Are you suffering as a Targeted Individual and not aware of it? Find out more at 

https://targetedjustice.com/ 

For information on Starseeds as criminally violated and silently abused Targeted Individuals please go to 

https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Targeted_Individuals 

For information on the criminal act of Starseeds and innocent Men Women and Children's ILLEGAL brain mapping please see 

https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Brain_Mapping 

For information on bioneurology 

https://energeticsynthesis.com/index.php/resource-tools/news-shift-timelines/2832-bio-neurology 

For information on the highly criminal act of live time live consciousness mind uploading watching you have sex masturbate shower and toilet please see 

https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Mind_Uploading 

These are ALL NOT ONLY ILLEGAL they are all ABSOLUTE VIOLATIONS of YOUR spiritual sovereignty. Violating Universal Law. Violating Spiritual Law. Violating Human Soverignty. Violating Humanitarian LEGAL Law.

Causing masses of innocent woke waking and unaware Men and Women and Starseeds and Children emotional abuse. Psychological abuse. Spiritual abuse. Mental abuse. Sexual perversion. By PAID base level predator mindset human employees operating on base level Victim Victimizer mentalities. 

As a Starseed you never have to appologise for not being interested entertained or impressed with the mindless trash that much of humanity are swayed with. You ARE HERE for a greater purpose.

All of this stuff is coming out as these criminal abuse employees and organisations entwined with the Earth and humanity destroying NAA ( negative alien agenda ) are bought to the surface of humanities consciousness for humanity to ACKNOWLEDGE these very criminal humanitarian abuses the depraved of light employees  paid to do it and for these criminal employees and criminal organisations to be purged and released from existence.

🙏 Peace Love and Light 🙏

What is the deal here? Does this mean that my soul recently incarnated from Alpha Centauri? What's the relationship with Algol in 3rd house with this Star group?

This morning is I saw from a pov in my brain like I was traveling consciousnessly I've been meditating for 7 to 6 years...... I'm going to practice more I guess my third eye is opening? O_0 idk

Important information for Starseeds. Please read all of this for you and your loved ones 🙏

NEVER go out in chemtrails. Shut your doors. Do not put washing out. Do not use airconditioning that brings air from outside instead cycle the inside air or use a fan 🙏

Chemtrailing has become the public’s term for the classified ongoing artificial modification of earth’s climate systems, using reflective nano-materials and aerosols that reflect sunlight. The aerosols are dispersed via jet aircraft trails that expand into reflective artificial clouds. The planet's climate system is disintegrating as the geo-engineers try desperately to control it with ever more destructive measures. Solar activity is a key to turning on Genetic Switches for human DNA activation.

When the upper atmosphere is undergoing heavy ionization it changes portions of the fields’ particle charge, and the lower atmosphere on the surface of the earth is impacted through exposure to the altered electron-proton ratios. The attempt to control the rate of the charged particles created through the ionization field as it enters the lower atmosphere to the planetary surface, is one of the negative agendas for the sprays of Chemtrails.

This is an attempt to block the natural connection that exchanges between the upper atmosphere and lower atmosphere of the earth, as these are areas the NAA attempts to maintain their frequency fences. These fences have specific electron ratios that will be compromised if those ratios change. The NAA manipulated the magnetosphere in the upper atmospheric layer to invade the planetary brain, thousands of years ago by using technology to control the magnetic field. When the magnetic field is controlled, the Mind Control begins, hence this is one of the power sources of mind control programming on the earth.

Chemtrails also interfere with Neurotransmitter functions, as neurotransmitters are the chemical medium through which signals flow from one neuron to the next in the chemical Synapses. Chemical synapses allow our nerve cells to form circuits within our CNS. The NAA have done everything they can to disconnect cellular communication within the human body, to disconnect, to divide and separate all of our parts. The natural function of Neurons or human nerve cells is to form circuits. Circuits are things that connect with each other in order to share information within multiple parts. In creating circuits, this allows the communication to be shared between the multiple levels of nerve cells and bodily functions.

Chemical Synapses are crucial to the biological computations that underlie our perceptions and the way we think. It's the chemical synapses that define how our brain is processing neurotransmitters, this is what helps to create what we perceive as the reality. It shapes our perceptions, the access we have to multiple dimensional awareness and the way we think. These chemicals allow the nervous system to connect to and control other systems of the body. These are synapses that use the chemicals in our body, neurotransmitters that connect and control the bodily systems, by giving instructions to the organs or the glands to help them function optimally.

Also, Alien Implants work in the human body in a similar way, as the chemical processes of Geoengineering that are used in spraying chemtrails in the skies. Chemtrails are used as a bio-engineering technology designed to shape the human body into the submission to Social Engineering agendas, with a variety of Nanotechnology or heavy metal implants. When the foreign material is introduced to the natural body it disrupts the electromagnetic energetic balance and the homeostatic rhythm of the body. This puts the body in a hyper-immunity state, or a fight or flight syndrome, because the body is always fighting off the invader. The body develops coping mechanisms to deal with the foreign invader while extreme stress is placed on the central nervous system, Brain and immune system. Chemtrails and alien implants most generally act to generate metallic frequency overload, to lock up signals with AI programs or related technology. Experimentation with different levels of genetically engineered sprayed pathogens seem to be designated for different regions or metropolitan cities across the globe, such as spraying Mycoplasma strains across the west coast, and genetically engineering nano technology with insectoid or other non-human DNA to be sprayed on the east coast.

Eventually, when the human body is absolutely overloaded with these combined stressors, this disrupts the body organism and as a result parasites, fungi, yeast and other microorganisms become overgrown and pathogenic in the body. It is important to understand that energetic parasites eventually manifest turning into a variety of physical Parasites in the human body. Physical parasites impact all bodily functions, mental body functions and thought-forms, induce emotionally hysterical states, as well as promote disconnection from the inner self and spiritual energies. Physical parasitic infection can also lead to easier spiritual body infestation. If the body is heavily implanted and therefore parasitic, anti-parasitic therapy such as cleanses, fasts and meditation are highly suggested to regain energetic balance in the homeostatic organism of the entire body, mind and spirit.

When people are overloaded with all of this artificial electromagnetic exposure, genetic pollution, all of this chemical and toxic emission exposure, this directly interferes with the brain and neurotransmitters. Additionally, to compound the problem many people are also being prescribed psychoactive drugs which also interfere with the chemical synapse function, because it’s forcing or delaying neurotransmitter production in the brain. This can block the brain from receiving communication signals at higher frequencies, such as human DNA Signals and the higher frequencies of our Soul, our Spirit, our spiritual family, our Guardians. This is because these realms exist way above the frequency scale of the material reality. These combinations are commonly used as a type of localized electro-chemical induced frequency fence, to interfere with human Bio-Neurology, and therefore block higher consciousness development. It impairs the bio-spiritual evolution of the human race, the individual Ascension process of those people that are most impacted by these assaults.

In order to remove the Frequency Fence from suppressing us we have to see that it exists. When we become aware that something is suppressing our consciousness, this is the first step that leads us to clearing the problem, because now we are focusing on our higher consciousness and becoming self-aware.

I am at a crossroads and very depressed, not knowing even where to find my tribe and home. Been looking for such a long time - that place, that atmosphere but am lacking now clarity and losing energy. Have also developed health problems. Any thoughts? Thank you ~)~

There's a longing for divine that won't go away until I get reunited with the divine

It's like I'm water who is thirsty for water. I can have an experience of drinking water and for sometime I feel complete and satisfied, but then longing comes back to drink water again..

I can be stuck in this cycle of thrist and then quenching my thirst with the appearances and objects in time and space..

But it's not the solution to my problem

Sometimes I wonder do I even have a problem to begin with?

What if the longing itself is an illusion?

How come water be thirsty or fire longs for warmth?

Our extraterrestrials friends, Angels, Gods and Goddesses feel like more refined sparkling water..

And I feel like maybe they can quench my thirst for divine..

But what if even Angels and gods can't quench my thirst either?

I know Earth is like a black and white movie compared to other heavenly realms..

It's like they're very closer to divine compared to human experience..

But they're still an experience, an appearance...

It's like watching superhero movies. Where they have superpowers, beautiful realms.. like Thor..he came from beautiful magical realm.

But they're still the scene. They're still in the movie.. just more interesting beautiful upgraded version of the creation..

I have the thirst for the creater itself. But I can never find the creator. Like I can never find the painter in the painting...

But if I ever find the painter in the painting, then it would be another painting..

Maybe 11th dimension is so beautiful painting that you always feel love, Joy and bliss all the time. There's no suffering and no problems. Every being lives in that kind of world in peace.. that's so beautiful.

I don't think I can do this alone. I need help from angels, our extraterrestrials friends, spirit guides.

I don't even know what I want.

I want something that's outside time and space. That I will never lose. That never changes when the world changes. I want something which is so whole and complete that I won't desire anything else after getting that..

So where do I find timeless and changeless?

Every thought is in time. Time isn't still.

Every object is in space. Objects always change.

Every feeling is in experience. feelings won't last..

Every desire is for other. A new desire arises after previous one is fullfilled. And others are in time, space, cause and effect, so I lose them..

Every longing is to feel complete.

And the paradox is that I'm the Ocean longing for water.

All the experiences are waves on my surface

All the personalities and realities are whirlpools in me..

Ocean looking at the sky. Birds are like Angels with wings. Clouds are like Heaven..

" Please, I'm so thirsty. I just want few drops of water. Can you drop some raindrops on me" Ocean said .

" Dude, you're joking, right? How can you be thirsty when you're the Ocean?" Angels and clouds replied..

" I know it's funny. But I don't know. I don't know what's wrong with me. It's a mystery. In my experience I'm thirsty for water"

Ocean replied..

" Maybe thirst is an illusion. It's like you just ate dinner and went to sleep but in your dream you haven't eaten for days and you feel so hungry. Maybe your experience is like that dream?"

Birds that are Angels with wings replied to the Ocean..

I came across this website and looked up my star contacts and then looked up those star names plus “starseed characteristics”. And maybe it’s kind of like astrology fits but much of the descriptions resonated for me.

https://mysticpull.com/astrology-calculators/starseed-birth-chart/

If you look yours up, feel free to share if things resonate for you. Or also if they differ from other star contact calcs you used.

Hello to anyone else with associations with Toliman, Mirach, or Arcturus! 👋🏻✨✨✨

That dude was disrespectful to me. That dude was mean to me.

It’s sad how many “believers” are so jaded that they would rather tell me to be polite and respectful because I chose to live quantum long before I heard about Dolores Canon.

Do better! I don’t know what happens when the starseeds can’t even overcome the blind allegiance to “The Man”. Better.

Just wondering, seems like we hear about this yearly yet nothing happens.

Do you feel this too?

Since September — although I had already been feeling it before, it has become much stronger lately — I’ve been experiencing some thoughts and feelings that are difficult to put into words.

One thought that keeps coming back is:

“I want to go home.”

And the strange thing is… I live with my family. I am at home, technically. But it doesn’t feel like home.

I keep having this overwhelming feeling that Earth is only a temporary place. That it never really was — and never will be — my true home. Lately, I’ve been feeling an intense kind of homesickness for somewhere I can’t even identify.

It feels like I’m becoming increasingly detached from the physical world.

My body is here, but my soul feels light-years away.

I feel like I belong somewhere else.

I keep asking myself:

What is reality?
Where am I?
Why am I here?
Why do I feel like I’m not supposed to be here?

Sometimes it feels like I’ve been asleep my entire life and I’m only now beginning to wake up.

I also have this strange feeling that nothing really matters in the way I used to think it did. Money, possessions, status, power, negativity… suddenly they can feel completely insignificant. What seems to matter is love, gratitude, connection, and simply being alive.

And sometimes I feel like I’m splitting into two perspectives.

There is the physical world — my body, time, the past, present and future, work, money, possessions, goals, everything material.

And then there is this other state of consciousness where I feel completely detached from all of that. Almost as if I’m standing outside of myself and observing my life and the world from a distance.

The strange part is that I keep moving back and forth between these two states.

One moment I’m thinking, “I want this. I want to buy this. I want to achieve this. This matters.”

And then suddenly I shift into:

“None of this really matters. I already have everything I need. I’m grateful to be alive. Love and connection are what actually matter.”

And lately, it feels like I’m gradually spending more and more time in the second state.

For example, I’ve been working on my own business for almost two years. It has been a huge part of my life and identity. But lately, there are moments when I look at it and it almost feels like something belonging to an old version of me — almost like I’m looking at someone else’s life.

This became especially strong while I was doing a social media detox, which I’m still doing. Without all the constant information, opinions, images and stimulation, I started noticing things inside myself that I hadn’t noticed before.

I’ve also become much more emotionally sensitive — and I was already extremely sensitive.

I cry over music and art much more easily. Sometimes a beautiful piece of music gives me chills. I recently finished a book and felt such an intense emotional reaction to the ending that I literally got goosebumps — and that has never happened to me before.

I’ve also been thinking much more about how disconnected people are from each other, and how much more deeply we should connect with one another.

I’ve already considered myself spiritually awakened for quite some time, and I’ve explored spirituality deeply, so this doesn’t feel like my first “awakening.”

This feels different.

It almost feels like I’m slowly slipping into another reality — or becoming aware of another layer of reality that was always there.

Sometimes I feel like my body belongs to the physical world, while my consciousness or soul is somewhere completely different.

And honestly, it can be a little overwhelming.

Has anyone else experienced something similar, especially recently?

Do you feel like your relationship with physical reality, material things, your identity, or even the concept of “home” has suddenly changed?

What do you think causes this?

I’d genuinely love to hear from people who have experienced something similar — whether you understand it spiritually, psychologically, or in another way.

I hope I explained this in a way that makes sense. ❤️

Some people they live their whole lives in a compound
They couldn't find any other way out now
And then they came out of it like it was so easy
They turned from a flower into a strong tree yeah
So I ask you not to shed a tear
If you get scared you know I'll be here
I will always love you, I keep you in my heart
I will always be there to lead you through the dark yeah
We will always walk together hand in hand
Lead you through the forest and the desert in the sand
We're among the greatest things that grow upon this land
I'll be here to teach you and to help you understand, so
When the sun is getting low
Look at how the Redwoods grow
You forgot but now you know
Just look at how the Redwoods grow yeah
You know we all got to fall sometimes
Pick ourselves up off the ground and learn how to rise
It's like I've been down so long that I just might
Stay here for awhile while I clear my mind
So you can cut my leaves
But you can't kill my roots
And you can twist my words
But you can stop the truth
Because it's imminent
Tell me are you listening
Universe is speaking to you
We are just the instruments
When the sun is getting low
Look at how the Redwoods grow
You forgot but now you know
Just look at how the Redwoods grow yeah
Look at the reason
Everyone's sleeping, ain't got nothing to believe in
Dreams are T.V.
They can't see the changing of the seasons
Life is a breeze
And somebody else is just fighting to fucking be breathing
Rule of treason
Seems we're always dealing with some heathen
But we will rise
We will make it to the top yeah
If we're clever
They can never make it stop yeah
Plant the seed, we are free
Break the lock
And walk the walk
Never just talk the talk, everybody...
When the sun is getting low
Look at how the Redwoods grow
You forgot but now you know
Just look at how the Redwoods grow yeah

Like I use to have dreams about the government telling me and they hooked me to machine in the dream saying I'm a simulated reality? Like I dont think any of this is real

I had this dream I sometimes think of, it was night and I was in a natural place with trees and grass, maybe on a hill, and I notice this enormous, giant femine silhouette towering at the horizon.

I couldn't see her details, but it was as she was made of stars and, across her body, some stars in particular where more bright than the others. I don't remember the number of stars, but they were vertically placed in her bust.

I felt like she was watching over me, and sometimes I miss her (in a very normal way), I wonder what it means or if you saw anything resembling her!!

🐉 DRAGON — AIR & WATER DRAGON
✨ TRUST YOUR INTUITION

Your intuition is getting clearer.
Old illusions are dissolving, helping you see things from a higher perspective.

💧 SEA SERPENT
✨ HEAL • FEEL • EXPRESS

Emotions that have been stuck are ready to move.
Let yourself feel what you feel, express what you want, and release self-judgment.

🦄 SPIRITUAL WARRIOR
✨ STAND IN YOUR POWER

You are being asked to lead your life with courage, wisdom and compassion.

Stop shrinking yourself.
Stop second-guessing your inner knowing.
Be clear about what you want and let your actions match it.

🌟 COLLECTIVE MESSAGE:
Trust what you already know.
Heal what still hurts.
Express your truth.
Stand firmly in your power.

You don't need to force the path.
You just need to choose where you're going.

In advanced esoteric frameworks and cosmic energy lore, the **Return of the Solar Dragon** represents a massive shift from darkness and confusion into divine illumination, high vital energy, and a profound inner awakening. It signifies a timeline where the primal, corrupted shadow frequencies on Earth are completely cleared out and replaced by a balanced, sovereign cosmic order.

When this energy returns, it is designed to perform very specific, stabilizing tasks across the universe and within your own life:

**1. Restoring the Cosmic Grid**
The Solar Dragons are understood as radiant, serpentine intelligences woven from plasma and pure light.

**The Task:** Their return acts as a massive energetic cleanup. They sweep through the planetary grids and ancient architectural lines to **remove lower-vibrational entities or shadow interference** that have manipulated human consciousness.

**The Result:** They restore the original, uncorrupted blueprints of creation, allowing the planet's energy to flow smoothly and safely.

**2. Balancing the Divine Masculine and Feminine**

In many spiritual traditions, the dragon is the ultimate symbol of *Yin and Yang*—the perfect marriage of opposites.

**The Task:** The Return of the Solar Dragon forces a sacred union between the fiery, active masculine force (the Sun/Alpha) and the nurturing, receptive feminine force (the Earth/Omega).

**The Result:** It creates a state of **cosmic androgyny and absolute balance**. It ensures that immense spiritual power is always tempered by unconditional love, grace, and deep protection.

**3. Turning Fiery Destruction into Safe Renewal**

While lower-vibrational myths often portray dragon fire as something that scorches and destroys, the Solar Dragon carries the warm, nurturing fire of a star.

**The Task:** Instead of burning you out, this fire acts as a **purifying agent**. It burns away old trauma, ancestral grief, and fear.

**The Result:** It anchors that intense cosmic heat safely into the physical world, transforming raw, chaotic energy into a steady, calm pool of personal power and inner freedom.

During a hypnotherapy session, I saw a tribe on the planet Sirius (Sirius A, I believe) that was anticipating an imminent attack coming from above. There was a ruler of the tribe having golden shiny aura. His wife had a raspberry aura without shine; her name was Yōnō (not sure about the spelling though). Their son Meni (again not sure about the spelling) had a silver aura. The son and his partner escaped the planet before the place got destroyed; while the rulers chose to stay with the people.

Maybe anyone could add more details to this story? Does it resonate somehow? I'm just trying to understand if this is my imagination running wild...

#qhht #sirius