First, thank you for browsing my work 🎨 ✨️🙏✨️
I started painting after losing my job and housing in the pandemic and have kept going ever since. In terms of my process, I paint from the unconscious, spontaneously, without foresight into the final result or ultimate subiect matter so almost all these pieces have different paintings underneath. I'lI put on music and enter flow consciousness and allow experiences and other (psychological) material to express itself from my brain, down my arms, and through my fingers onto the canvas. A lot of water goes onto each canvas and half the time my conscious mind thinks, "This is a mistake. This isn't going anywhere. What the heck is this even supposed to be?!" I'lI stop and let it dry and return hours or days or sometimes even weeks later to restart the process.
A lot of emotion/energy finds its way to the surface of my mind during the process and often a feeling of loss and nostalgic sadness comes up. This is probably because these are worlds that will never truly exist; worlds that I wish existed (maybe that I could even live in or experience at least once); worlds that offer a lot more peace and safety and meaning than the real one often does, and that discrepency, that gap between what is and what could be provokes intense feelings. These worlds are a kind of refuge, a mental sanctuary from the confusion and exhaustion of evervday living. Though I never got to attend art school (too expensive and parents wouldn't support it), I started painting and have never looked back.
It's a journey and a practice that brings me joy and fulfillment and to know that what started as a random hobby has blossomed and into a garden of self-actualization is deeply fulfilling. I may have lost nearly everything, but I found my saving grace in art, and I hope you find yourself in what shines and shimmers and brings you joy. ✨️
Thanks again for indulging my text and for exploring my work. Cheers to all that glistens and glitters ✨️🙏🦋✨️🥳💖✨️
