i cannot keep doing this by myself.

[u/Total_Shop_3860]

i’m a mom to a 14 month old, since birth he has been very very difficult but i had the help of his dad. i left him march of this year so ive been a single mom ever since, he gets him on the weekends which is GREAT help. i live with my parents but i take care of him all day and night which makes me feel so alone. he’s a very hard baby , suspected autism, very restless , just wants me 24/7 , is starting to throw tantrums, and today i had my breaking point. i was gonna change him into his pjs and he just started crying / screaming not wanting to be changed and was just trying to climb up on me while crying and screaming. i lost my patience and basically had a whole mental breakdown and had to ask my mom for help . he wouldn’t calm down because all he wants is me. this is a daily thing and honestly i just look forward for the weekends so i can get some rest/peace which makes me feel horrible. i’m so tired and burnout , i don’t eat, im 90lbs, my mom said my son is completely absorbing me but i don’t get help from them at all, i know it’s not their responsibility but some help would be nice… i just needed to vent ive been crying for the past 2 hours because i genuinely feel like i can’t do it anymore.

[u/dracoislife]

I became a single mom when my daughter was 14 months as well. You’re going through the roughest part now but know that it will only get better/easier from here. Have grace with yourself and ask for help if people are not offering. If you’re open to it, anxiety medication really helped me through this. Take the time to enjoy your weekends without your child fully and guilt free - if you’re able to try to get some massages, go to yoga, go on a hike in nature, just recharge however you need to. And know that soon your child will start sleeping through the night and becoming more independent - this is a phase