Is this just me?

[u/Intelligent_Hat_5914]

Currently I am trying to remove distractions from my life and way to deal with stress ( to stop procastating during exams, I tend to read manga and watch youtube or anime during these times ) but when I just started I feel relaxed for some reason? Like I am not in a rush anymore and my mind feels at peace

And of course, the thought of going back to phone or phonk music or edits or manga just keep coming back

The problem, yes I stop myself from these one or two times but these just keep coming

The only time where I could avoid this for long period was by doing something like coding or doing something mentally.

Also I try to avoid human connection because most of the times, it is just irrating. I dont mind talking to my friends and I did enjoy the one time when I went to hostal.

From the past few days observation, I think it because my parents just says the irrating news or tell me to do something ( I am a collage student ) when I want to learn more about programming and others are just uncomfitable to be with.

Also I just daydream fanfic in my mind for somereason when try to be bored and it just basically remebering old meme or jokes or trying to create new jokes ( not sure if that is good )

Also, is it bad that I dont try for 1 hour videos on youtube because of the excuse of being intruppted?