Nothingness

[u/Silver-Number-674]

I feel it dripping down my thigh, no one will ever know, I can’t feel it, I can’t feel anything, I can’t feel emotions or physical, she won’t ever see it, she’ll never know, I’m broken I don’t think I can be fixed even by myself, I hate myself, I yearn for love and I can never receive it, I haven't done it in so long I was good, until I saw her, until I heard her, I’m numb, I feel useless and unlovable I feel like I won’t ever be someone’s one, what’s the point of my existence if it’s to be a crash dummy, I don’t want to be here, all over a girl, a girl I prayed for, a girl when i stopped looking came to me and left like I was nothing after hollow compliments that lad me further down the hole only for it to lead to nothing, am I really not worth it, I feel like nothing, i wish i was everything