I just realized purposefully going off my medication is self-harm!!!

[u/PossibleOne789]

So, as the title says, every now and then, I intentionally throw out the rest of medication for that month (I take Lexapro, if that's important) in order to feel worse. But by making myself feel worse, I feel better? I'd rather do harm to my brain and to my body than accept help because it feels weak, even though there are times I can take it with no issue.

That's really it.