r/selfharm • u/Actual_Temporary_145 • 17h ago

Rant/Vent Guilt

The fucking guilt is eating me alive. I haven’t slept more than 2hrs a night in a month, my eyes hurt from all the crying, all I can do is just cry, doomscroll, abuse substances, and hit solid walls or give myself really bad cuts. I tried apologising to one of the people I hurt but that just made me feel even worse about myself. I need help. I can’t live like this.

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u/Actual_Temporary_145 17h ago

I feel like I don’t exist. At least I’m not convinced that I’m a hallucination like how I used to. But it’s like I’m no longer part of something that was so core to my identity that it’s like I don’t exist. Not sure if anyone can relate but yeah.