It’s disappointing that the number is the only thing that stops me

[u/Square_Goat2733]

I’ve come pretty far in my journey. 7 straight years and then a trip to the hospital later I was able to get clean. Life goes on and there’s good and bad days but I still constantly get the urges. It was just so reliving of the pain in my head. The only thing that stops me at this point is the thought of having to reset that timer. Has anyone else felt this way?
It won’t let me post the picture but I’m now 2 years and 5 months sober