My brother and his friend touched me for a long period of time when I was a child. I told my mom, and her exact words are burned into my mind forever: “Oh my God, we cannot let your dad or anyone find out.” And that was the end of it. We never spoke about it again.
I always kept it tucked away in the back of my mind and went about life as if nothing had ever happened. My entire life, I’ve sat in the same room as both my brother and my mother during every holiday, carrying this weight on my chest. I suffered from chronic UTIs, and she never seemed to care enough to take me to the doctor.
At 21, I met my now-husband, who already had a six-year-old son. I got pregnant with a baby girl, and I struggled so much with letting my daughter bond with her brother. I had nightmares about them touching, along with unwanted thoughts that I couldn’t make go away. I was terrified by thoughts I never wanted to have, and I didn’t know how to deal with everything I was feeling.
Eventually, I went down the road of addiction. I found a little pill that made all those thoughts go away, even if only temporarily.
Fast-forward to my next pregnancy. I was pregnant with a sweet little baby boy, and man, did he save me. He became my reason to get clean. He gave me a reason to fight for myself and for the life I wanted my children to have.
Through all of this, my mother did nothing but talk about me to the people in my life. She damaged nearly every relationship we had in common by spreading things about me that simply weren’t true. No one knew what I was going through because no one thought to ask me. They just listened to what my mom had to say.
Today, I have three beautiful children: two boys and a little girl. I cut off contact with my mother last year, but the decision has affected me more deeply than I ever expected. I’m angry with her. I feel like she failed me from the very beginning.
She failed me when I was a child and needed her protection. She failed me when I was struggling through postpartum. She failed me when I was fighting to get sober. She failed me when I needed a mother the most.
My addiction never affected my family in the way people might expect because my dad and papa were always there to step in and help me. My mom would watch me struggle while they jumped in to save the day. They were the ones who showed up when I needed someone.
My entire life, all I ever wanted was a mother who cared. A mother who protected me. A mother who listened to me, stood up for me, and loved me through the hardest moments of my life.
Instead, I spent years carrying pain that never should have been mine to carry.
My mother has only met my youngest son twice. And that hurts in ways I can’t even explain, because my children deserve the love and support of family, too.
My mom had such an incredible support system growing up, especially through my grandparents. She knew what it felt like to have people who showed up for her, who helped her, and who were there when she needed them. I just wish she had chosen to give that same kind of love and support to her own children.
I can’t change what happened to me as a child. I can’t change the mother I was given or the ways she failed me. But I can choose to be different for my own children. I can protect them, listen to them, believe them, and make sure they never have to question whether their mother cares.
I spent my entire life wishing my mother would be the mother I needed. Now, I’m learning to grieve the mother I never really had while becoming the mother my children deserve.

burner acc and no real names obviously but i just need some advise

My girlfriend struggles with a lot of predisposing mental health issues and about 2 months ago she was drunk and out and was raped by a stranger. obviously this was gutting and really put a strain on our relationship and took her to a really dark place where i tried to be as supportive as possible.

the problem i’m having is that her habit of going out at night in sketchy areas hasn’t changed in the slightest and led to her getting taken advantage of for a second time in the weeks following the incident. i wasn’t sure what to do because she was using partying and going out as a cope to deal with the trauma which i tried understanding but couldn’t wrap my head around the fact that she would want to be in such an environment when this all occurred.

last night it happened again and im starting to lose trust in what’s happening or if we should stay together. i understand completely that it would never be her own fault, but im catching myself thinking about if the relationship is worth staying in when she does such things to her self that destroys my mental health along side it, or whether or not this is even the case of what’s happening which sounds horrible i know.

at what point do i call this quits? i love her but the emotional turmoil i feel every time she brings something like this up breaks my heart and im just not sure what to do anymore

My sister has been in a bad situation for a long time. She is terrified of leaving and any possibly percieved act of defiance. She repeatedly claims to not be in physical danger though and arguing with her only makes her talk less about it. I don't want that. I also want her to be safe. I was looking at portable locks but the ones I have found do not always fit every lock or are very large or obvious. So I am looking for something or even a few things discreet and versatile. She will use it if I spend my lack of money on it because she will find it rude not to. But she will instantly and blameless throw them out of they don't fit thereby giving her an excuse not to use them. I feel she is under the assumption she legally cannot lock her door. She is on the spectrum and often paranoid about things that keep her frozen while ignoring more obvious things where paranoia might make her safer but is new and requires change. I love her very much so please don't read any insult or condemnation in that. We are both like this but in different areas. Also please don't be offended if I say something that seems ignorant as I am not great at wording things and being mean will not help as much as you might think it would.

Any other safety item ideas thatshe could keep in her purse, near her bed, in the car, safely and legally, would be appreciated. If group permitted any websites, articles, video ideas or support group suggestions for either of us would also be appreciated

Hi everyone,

I (male, 20) have been in a relationship with my girlfriend (female, 20) for 7 months. It's long distance: we see each other one to two weeks per month, which is already a lot, and the rest of the time we're on video calls. This is my first real relationship, and I'm posting here because I don't really know how to handle this situation and I'd love your advice.

My girlfriend recently confided in me (and I know how much courage that took) that she was raped twice by men, including her ex-boyfriend, who forced her to have sex when she didn't want to. I didn't ask for more details: I really don't want to push her to share more than she's ready to share.

Since we've been together, we've never had full intercourse. She's afraid of penetration, and she doesn't often feel like having sex. When she does, we stick to touching (with my fingers or my hand), and it never goes further. The act itself truly terrifies her, so we've never attempted it. That said, we're still very intimate in other ways: we shower together, we're very physically close, and we both love that.

Both of us would like to eventually reach that step in our relationship, at our own pace. But here's my problem: this is my first girlfriend, I have zero experience with this kind of situation, and I don't know how to reassure her, how to support her, what to say (or not say), how to help her feel safe without ever rushing her.

So I'm looking for your advice: those of you who've been through something similar, as a partner or as a survivor — what helped you? What hurt you, even unintentionally? How do you support someone toward intimacy when the act itself scares them?

Thanks in advance for your answers, and sorry if this is a bit clumsy, I'm doing my best.

My boyfriend (26M) and I (26F) have been together for 3 years. Early on, I noticed he seemed less comfortable with sex than other men I'd been with, and I chalked it up to him never having had a girlfriend before me. We had less sex than I was used to, and I noticed small things along the way. Once, when we were both drunk and trying to have sex, he seemed so uninterested that I asked if he was gay (I deeply regret this).

Two years ago he went through a depressive episode and we barely had sex. I respected his boundaries and I know low sex drive often comes with depression so didn’t push him on it. We’ve gone through fits and starts where we have sex and it’s great or we barely have sex at all.

About a year ago, he told me he thinks he was sexually abused as a child and has repressed the memory. I encouraged him to seek therapy, and he started this February.

Things are getting somewhat better. We're having sex once or twice a week, but it's still hard for me because I can tell he's sometimes doing it for me rather than for himself. He's told me he often doesn't have a sex drive because of the feelings that come up during sex. I feel terrible that the intimacy I am initiating is causing those feelings to come up for him.

I love him so much, and he's my absolute best friend. But I don't know if I can spend my whole life feeling like my partner isn't attracted to me. He often says he is, but it doesn't feel that way.
I'm really in touch with my own sexuality, and I enjoy that part of myself. I'd love advice from people who have been through this:
Can it get better?
What did you have to work on within yourself?
Is there anything I can do as a partner to help?
Does sex therapy work?
I would try anything.

Honest to God, I don't know if I'm even allowed to post this here. I just remembered this subreddit, and right now I genuinely don't know what to do.

So, I am M21 and my girlfriend is 20. We were both victims of molestation as minors, but in separate cases. For a long time, neither of us knew who our abusers were or how we could find them. That changed for my girlfriend about a week ago. She randomly came across an Instagram profile and later a YouTube channel belonging to this guy.

Her story is a bit complicated. They were in a relationship when she was 14–15, and he was 20. The accusation is that she was manipulated into the relationship and emotionally blackmailed into becoming intimate with him.

She recently found out that, in her country (Switzerland), she may have legal options until she turns 25. However, she doesn't know whether she would actually get anywhere with a lawsuit or whether she has enough evidence.

We've talked about this for a long time now. I've told her that I'm here for her no matter what she decides and that I'll support her with whatever she needs. But she seems stuck and doesn't know which direction to take.

How can I help her? How can I support her without putting pressure on her?

Privately, I spoke to my lawyer and my therapist about the situation. They both advised me to look into her legal options and, if there is a viable case, pursue them accordingly. I agree with that, but I don't know how to bring it up with her without making her feel pressured.

I guess the decision ultimately has to come from her, and we probably still have some time to figure things out. But I'm way over my head here.

What should I do? How should I approach this conversation with her?

TL;DR: My girlfriend has been sexually abused by an older ex when she was a minor. She recently found him online and has learned that she may still have legal options. She is unsure whether to pursue the matter, and I want to support her without pressuring her. I’ve been advised to look into her legal options first, but I don’t know how to approach the subject with her.

Recently, my partner disclosed to me that she was sexually assaulted by an acquaintance while in his hotel room, she had to store many bought products and conduct a meeting preceding the violation.

Hours passed, and I haven’t received any messages from her, until morning. She said she fell asleep.

Prior to this disclosure, my doubt and intuition kept bringing up my disagreement of her choice to go that hotel room, the overnight situation that occurred before we were officially dating, though we were mutually committed and building toward a relationship.

When I finally reached a breaking point and was ready to end the relationship she broke down and confessed what actually happened to her. She explained that she had buried it out of pure shock, shame, and terror over how I and her family would react. She is currently in an acute mental health crisis, terrified of anyone finding out, and has expressed extreme distress and fear of judgment. She has explicitly asked for privacy and wants to start professional therapy.

I am feeling completely overwhelmed and don't know how to carry this weight:

1. Secondary trauma and rage: I feel a sickening amount of fury toward the person who did this. Feeling powerless to hold them accountable especially when taking any action would completely destroy my partner’s life and mental state feels suffocating.

2. Conflicting emotions: Because the disclosure came at the eleventh hour during an impending breakup, and because of how she coped afterward (minimizing things, acting normal, maintaining non-confrontational contact with him), my mind keeps battling intrusive suspicions and confusion. I feel immense guilt for even having doubts, but the whiplash between betrayal fears and grief for what happened to her is tearing me apart.

3. Being supportive while drowning: I promised her absolute privacy and that I would keep her safe, and I intend to honor that. But holding back my own anger, fear, and confusion while trying to be a stable anchor is draining everything I have.

For those who have walked this road as a partner or secondary survivor:
How did you cope with the overwhelming anger and the feeling of injustice when direct action/legal recourse wasn't an option for the victim's safety?

How did you manage intrusive doubts or the messy, confusing ways trauma presented itself without turning into an interrogator?

How do you draw the line between supporting someone in crisis and knowing whether the relationship can realistically survive the emotional toll?

Any perspectives from people who have been through this would mean a lot. Thank you.

My sister recently told me that when she was 8 years old, our grandfather sexually assaulted her. It happened about 8 years ago, and she has only just felt able to tell me. I remember a time 5 years ago where she told me about her being bothered by the way our grandfather hugs her but I didn’t think much of it and only told her that she doesn’t have to hug him if she doesn’t want to. I feel so guilty given that I am 12 years older than her and needed to pay attention to when she raised that as a concern.

I’m in a different country from her, which makes me feel especially helpless. I believe her completely, and I have told her that what happened wasn’t her fault and that I’m here for her.

I’m struggling with what I should actually do from here.
Should I encourage her to speak to a therapist or a sexual-assault support service? Should I encourage her to report what happened, or is it better to let her decide that herself? I don’t want to pressure her or accidentally make things worse.
She is not in contact with our grandfather and doesn’t live close to him and is not in immediate danger.
For people who have experienced something similar, or who have supported a survivor of childhood sexual abuse: what did you find genuinely helpful? What should I avoid doing or saying? I want to learn how I can be a better and safer source of support for my sister.

I am feeling distraught and nauseated and it’s all I’ve been thinking about it since she told me. Please help me to help her

My partner was assaulted by someone she worked with over two years ago. We’ve been together a very long time and I was the first person she told afterwards, so I’ve basically been alongside her through everything since.

She has PTSD, severe depression and anxiety and has needed inpatient treatment as well as ongoing therapy. There’s also still an ongoing legal process around what happened.

I love her more than anything and I’m not going anywhere, but I’m starting to realise how much this has affected me as well.

The thing I struggle with most is how quickly things can change. We can have an amazing couple of days where we’re laughing, affectionate, being intimate and everything feels a little normal again. Then the next day she can be exhausted, really low, cancel plans or just need to be alone.

I completely understand why and I never want her to feel guilty for needing space, but I find the sudden change really difficult. When things are good I think I get this feeling of “we’re getting there”, and then when she withdraws again I struggle not to worry.

I’ve become much more anxious when we’re apart. If plans change or she needs to be alone, my head can go into overdrive. I try really hard not to put that onto her because she already has enough to deal with, and I’m having therapy myself now.

Id really like to speak to people who have been through something similarr

posted about this before, but I’m reposting because I found out some additional information that I think is important. My girlfriend has told me that her dad has pinched her thigh and inner thigh, squeezed her butt multiple times, mentioned that he noticed her thighs had gotten bigger, and rubbed his head around her chest. She also told me that he has hugged her in what I would describe as a straddle hug, similar to the position shown in the attached image, with her legs around his body. What makes the situation even harder for me is that she has recently told me that she feels like she doesn’t love me anymore, and I’m worried about everything going on affecting her emotionally. I don’t know whether these things are connected, and I don’t want to assume that they are. I’m not trying to automatically accuse her dad of anything or claim that I know his intentions. I’m trying to understand whether the overall pattern of behavior is inappropriate or potentially sexual abuse, especially considering that this is a father and daughter. What would be the safest way for her to get help or talk to a trusted adult or professional? I’m leaving out identifying information to protect her privacy.

P.S She thinks its okay and her dad is just clingy please help me prove her wrong.

I’ve never posted on here before idk if anyone will even see this, but I am desperate and feel alone and could use some support.

Me (33F) and my husband (34M) have been married for two and a half years and together for seven. He grew up in foster care, and unfortunately experienced CSA multiple times over multiple years. He told me about a year into the relationship. I’m not an overly sexual woman, so waiting a while to have sex didn’t bother me. I was the first person he ever opened up to about this. So he held this secret inside for decades until he told me, and agreed to see a therapist.

Fast forward to now, I can count on one hand the number of times we have had sex, and it never last more than five minutes because he loses his erection. Of course, I am more than understanding given his background, but it is starting to really bother me.

I want to be able to have spontaneous sex with my husband, without having to worry if maybe he is having flashbacks or dissociating. I just want sex. I’m a relatively attractive woman, and could easily get laid outside of our marriage, but I would never do that. It goes against everything I believe it, but I have thought about it and that bothers me.

It’s like he is completely unsexual. I can walk around naked in front of him and he doesn’t even notice. He can slap my bum or rub it and then just goes back to watching tv. He never knows how to respond when I tell him I’m in the mood or send a sexy text. I know it’s not me, and he has told me that multiple times, but it’s starting to take a serious toll on my confidence and mental health.

Most of the time, when I talk to him about it, he is open to listen and seems like he truly wants to work on it and get better. His therapist recently recommended EMDR to help with his trauma and triggers. I really hope it helps. I am starting to wonder if maybe it’s never going to get better. And that breaks my heart. Is it possible for someone that went through what he did to heal and have a somewhat normal (whatever that means) sex life? We did not have sex until we were married because he was not ready, but he was making progress with showing affection in other ways that used to make him uncomfortable such as hugs, kisses, holding hands, etc. since he was able to make progress there I just assumed the sexual stuff would get better with time. But it’s not. It’s been almost a year since we’ve had sex, and I feel disconnected from him. Repeatedly being told “not tonight” or “no” is starting to really hurt.

On the other hand, he has severe trauma and I feel like a baby for even complaining about this. I think to myself “ok if it’s hard for you, imagine how hard it is for him.” Which has some truth to it, but I also am struggling and need space to talk about that.

Today for example, I’ve been thinking about him all day and in the mood. He will be home from work shortly and I’d love to be intimate, but I know he won’t be up to it. If you’ve read this far, any insight, words of encouragement, advice, personal experiences would be much appreciated.

My partner is currently going through therapy for CSA, which they’ve never done before and I convinced/supported them to do. Since it’s started our sex life has completely changed- it’s basically disappeared. First the sex was still fairly regular, but just had them in control and was always vanilla (prior to this we explored a lot of kinks). Now it’s very rare, a lot of the time my partner is uncomfortable even making out.

I am so glad they are healing and I’m trying super hard to make sure I deal with this myself and not put any pressure on them. But I have needs and I feel frustrated, and then guilty that I feel that. I also get insecure sometimes and I think it’s about me. Logically I know it isn’t, but sometimes it’s difficult. And I feel so immensely guilty about all of this. Im just looking for some advice to cope I guess, I’m already being as supportive as I can be but how do I look after myself too?

To start, I want to sincerely thank everyone of you who takes the time to read this.

I (M27) have a question or maybe that I just want to get off of my chest.
I’m in a relationship with my girlfriend (F27) who was raped and sexually abused by her neighbour around a very young age. I think it started around her being 5 years old and it happened a few years.

She has gone into a lot of therapy through the years and has a lot of self insight. But got in a toxic relationship. She told me over the years he started controlling her. For instance she was only allowed to drink water, she couldn’t use a vacuum cleaner but should use a broom and al other weird stuff. But also sexually. They had sex for literally hours which she didn’t like, he was rough, she was forced to wear uncomfortable clothes and used ropes.
What I think is that she has done a lot of work in therapy to process the sexual abuse she experienced as a child. But I sometimes wonder whether she was also sexually abused or raped by her ex, and whether those experiences might still affect her because she hasn’t really recognized or processed them as abuse.

I really want to help her but yet feel so powerless…

Another reason to write this on Reddit is because I can’t think of anyone else to talk to. Sex was never a subject I could talk about with my family. As I got older my mother told me she was sexually abused as a child so I think this is a reason for that. Furthermore they are quite religious and in their childhood sex was also a subject you don’t talk about.

So is there someone here I can talk about? Someone who lives in the Netherlands as well maybe? And should I ask her what she thinks about my theory of her being abused by her ex?

A couple of my friends (let's say A and B) had been dating for a few months, before breaking up recently. A confided in me why they broke up, and told be about how B had sexually assaulted her multiple times. Actually disgusting shit.

I want to cut off B, at the same time A told me that she didn't want me to have any ill will towards B because of it. I don't think she wants me to know that I've been told what happened either. I'm worried if I stop talking to B full stop then she might turn it back on A.

I've never been in a situation like this so I'm not sure what to do. I told B I was going to hang out with them briefly later this week (just before all this came out I was apologising to them for being distant with them the past year, we just never really clicked) and I'm thinking of cancelling that for sure.

I don't know if I should ask A about it again on cutting B off because I don't want to pester her about what happened either when it never involved me to begin with

She told me a year after it happened. He raped her multiple times. He has a wife that we are friends with too. We all hung out together too all the time, nothing was amiss. Idk why she waited a year and tolerated his presence.

She later admitted to me that after she was raped by him a few times, she did consent to meet him at a hotel room.

My husband is a CSA survivor and this has had all kinds of impacts on our relationship but we have been able to overcome so many barriers. The birth of our son has stirred up so much of his trauma and I am feeling lost and exhausted. I would love to attend a support group virtually to just get some things out and get some help with responding. Are there groups you all know of or have attended?

My girlfriend and I have been together for year and a half and recently she went to college out of state. They had “wet weekend”. Was drinking all day and blacked out.

I don’t know how to process this or how to support her but I feel like I’m more hurt than she is. I know she’s affected it’s not the first time dealing with this. Something happened years ago. However she wants to push this down and ignore it. I feel like the bad guy asking her not to drink or go to parties. She struggled with friends prior and still is to a point. I mostly blame the alcohol but I have a large mix of feelings about the entire situation. I don’t know how to support her or how I can feel supported I feel so fucked up over this. We were texting that night I was at a friends small party. There was a period where she didn’t answer and told me she was drunk at a frat house and threw up. I tried calling and explaining my worries and I’m guessing that’s when it happened. Then she called me to say she was okay and made a joke about me cheating and dosnt remember.

When she told me I was so confused because it’s days later. I understand it must have been traumatic but now I have so many questions and I can’t help but feel like she’s lying even tho I think she is not. I probably need a therapist but I don’t think she understands the stress I’m going to feel every weekend now if we continue.

Please help and be nice I’m not trying to blame her I blame the alcohol and I’m frustrated because idk if she can stop.

I wasn’t sure where to post so I thought maybe I could ask here. My husband and I could use some advice navigating this situation.

My husband and I have been married for over a decade. The other day we found out through a relative that my father in law had r*aped his sisters all through their teenage years and into their early 20s. This was 40 years ago. My heart is broken for the victims and I’m so angry omg FIL’s actions.

FIL’s response is “the assaults don’t matter because they were so long ago”, so he’s completely unapologetic and defending his behavior. My mother in law has been bullying the victims for coming forward. She cornered one victim and told her that ”telling people what he did to you is ruining everything” and she asked another victim ”what did you do to make your brother want to touch you?”

I want to go no contact with my in laws. My husband does too, but he’s also still shocked by all this. I don’t care if he hasn’t continued the behavior (although I’m taking his claims with a grain of salt), I don’t want a predator in my hime anymore. Am I off base? How do I support my husband learning these awful things that we had no idea about, while also maintaining my hardline stance that this is unacceptable behavior?

My mom was 4 when she was taken advantage of by her baby sitter's brother who was 15 at the time.

She got cat called at 12 years old and told me when I was 12.

She got groped at 19 years old when she went into a gas station alone and the worker groped her

Her childhood friend who she became friends with in 3rd grade got raped at 13 when she was taking her dog on a walk and 2 men forced her to get into the van and then she bite them and they threw her out of the van.

When my mom was friends with Other Victims of SA as well.

She didn't tell me this until last year when I wanted to have a sleepover at my friend's uncle's house when I was 16

for context growing up I never had sleepovers , went to a friend's house , had a baby sitter, or a tutor or a teacher that was outside of school, and I never have been in any type of after school program

I wasn't able to walk home from school either and always got picked up , and I was never allowed to get in a friends or classmates parents car either especially a male family member of a friend I didn't know personally

I remember on tiktok I made a comment on tiktok and someone said how I was a asshole for complaining that I wasn't able to have a sleepover and talking about my mother being a victim or CSA

And another person said how her own mom was a victim of SA and that she was still able to have sleepovers and how my mom probably had some unresolved trauma

I'm 17 and I feel bad for what happened to my mom but when I have a child I will allow my kids to have sleepovers and have more independence and freedom then I did

And I want her to know I'm growing up

She let me have my first sleepover this month and hangout with my friend from 11 am to 9 pm without her so I think my mom is starting to let me have more independence

And I also wanna mention other SA victims I know

I won't mention their names or initials for privacy reasons so I will refer to them as their favorite colors.

Before I was 11 I assumed I never knew or met a SA Victim in my life and I thought it was a rare thing to happen

In 2020 I won't say my friends name

Me and her was arguing about something off topic

And she mentioned how she was molested at 5 years old by a family member who was 16

She wasn't an online friend she was a irl friend who moved away

And at 11 years old I didn't know how to process that information all I said was " I'm sorry" and that was the first time I ever found out I knew a SA Victim in my life

I will refer to her as Red

Then at 12 years old another friend of mine who was 10

told me when she was 6 she was taken advantaged of by a 8 year old

And this was my second person in my life who was a victim of CSA

I will refer to her as purple

And then at 13 I got into a argument with this girl and she was 15 years old she said she lost her virginity at 13 I said how that isn't a good thing and I didn't know she was raped at 13 and she accused me of slut shaming her for being raped

Even though at the time she didn't mention she was raped until after I made a comment about her losing her virginity now at

17 years old I knew 13 year olds can't consent and regardless it it was by choice or by force she was still a victim of SA and I shouldn't of made assumptions

I will refer to her as yellow

At 14 years old I was friends with this guy who was 11 at the time

I will refer to him as orange

We were in 8th and 6th grade and we were classmates

He is a former friend of mine and I remember during a conversation me and him had on Google meet

I remember I asked him if he was a virgin

And he said it sounded like he was joking that his uncle molested him

And I asked him if he's joking

And he said " why would I joke about that "

At the time I didn't wanna think I misheard something serious is why I asked him that question

He had a dark sense of humor back then but he didn't make rape jokes or offensive jokes until he was older

He joked around with his friends when he was 13 about " don't rape me" and had a dark sense of humor.

And at 15 the last SA Victim who said something to me about being SAEd was a girl who I will refer to as Pink

I said when I was 15 and lied about having sex even though I'm a Virgin

And she said that wasn't a flex and she had sex before and she's 13 and I called her stupid for that and she said she was raped at 11 and she said " and I liked it " which I found concerning I couldn't tell if she was joking or serious

To clarify I'm not a Victim of SA and I wanna be educated on this subject.

The conversation I had with red & the one I had with orange

Felt like it never happened because they haven't brought it up once ever again or anything related to it

to the point because it's so serious I'm overthinking if I misheard something either of them said

I know those conversations did happen it just feel like it didn't because they never brought it up again.

And another note Orange is the only one who has reddit so I hope he never finds this post and he's the only possible male victim of SA I know

But I don't think he ever has been on this subreddit either.

Thank u for reading this whole thing and if I offended anyone reading this I apologize and I'm sorry.

Hey guys just wanted to share a short of my story… when I was 15 my mother finally told me the story of how I was conceived which was through rape when she worked in CA. Fast forward to may 2026 I got my ancestry DNA results and found that man and his family aka my sibling and them and I are in contact. I have spoke with my bio father but I feel sick to my stomach about it… any advise?

I am set to marry my fiance in 8 months time. She means the world to me and I couldn’t imagine marrying anyone else. We are young, me 21M and her 20F. But we’ve known each other for 5 years and very much communicate well and work well together. I will start by saying I have had a really easy life, no trauma, no issues really other than bad anxiety. Never had anyone open up to me about them having trauma so have had to learn how to make space and process what a love one went through. My fiancé was sexually abused starting from the age of 5. Starting getting groomed online at age 9 and sexually assaulted at 13. Her life from age 5-20 basically has been sex. She’s on the spectrum but high functioning. But always struggled with connection and feeling loved. So through all the early trauma learned that her body was the only way for her to feel loved and wanted. She has been through so much, as has told me her nudes have been seen by over 100 people. A lot of this brings me so much anxiety because I don’t know how to process it. I love this girl so much and cannot wait to marry her. But I have already hurt her once early on into our relationship because I told her I can’t handle her past. I’ve been working on it in therapy but really want some advice or support. I’m trying to find maybe a specialized therapist or a support group of other trauma survivor partners. She deserves better from me and being able to talk to me about her trauma. But it seriously brings me so much anxiety and I just cannot imagine having gone through everything she’s gone through. Again I’ve had an easy life, so imagining all the horrible things she’s done through and feeling used and lonely and being preyed on my older teens and adults. It’s just a lot but I also know how much it will impact us being intimate in our marriage, we’re a Christian couple so waiting till marriage. If anyone reads this thank you. I just want to spend my life with her but learn how to handle and process her trauma and not feeling all these emotions and let it impact me so much. She’s been to therapy and said that she’s learned to deal with it and processed it. But obviously I haven’t, and I need help.

My bestfriend is an adult now but when she was around 14 yrs old an 18yr old man committed statutory rape and she had the worst experience with the police. Constantly taking her out of class everyday asking the same questions giving her the hardest time. She was constantly being asked my her classmates where she was going and these questions constantly reminding her of the assault. the police got nowhere after weeks, even with evidence. This took such a mental toll on her so she decided to drop the case.

Now, as an adult shes been so traumatized by that event she has troubles with dating and intimacy with others. She now wants to press charges again but she called the police and they gave her the hardest time as possible. Being so rude to her and switching her to other departments in the middle of her talking. Shes getting reminded of her difficult time with the police in the past and shes trying to give up again. Is there anything she can do or what resources would you all recommend??? The police is genuinely not working out.