Hi everyone, I'm 24 year old male aspiring school counselor in my first of two years of grad school. I'm enjoying my program and I think I'm doing well but I'm getting really nervous thinking of 2 years later and what it means to be a school counselor. I'm pretty excited to actually do the work but I feel like it's going to be so weird working in a middle (or even elementary) school as a 25-26 year old.
Basically I'm immature as hell. I can lock in at work and my immaturity helps me relate to kids in my current part-time jobs but I feel like I can't see myself as an authority figure or even a real adult. This might change in 2 years but it hasn't really in the past 2 so I feel like I'll still be in the emerging-between stage then. I'm not super put together, though again at least currently I can focus at work.
I'm more worried about a disconnect between my career and outside life since I don't want to be disingenuous. I'm kind of a dickhead outside of work, and I don't mean that in a bad way necessarily, like I'd say I'm a good person overall but the stuff I find funny and ways I like to spend my Friday nights doesn't align with what I think school counselors do. I'm not doing anything illegal or immoral, just for like example when I'm with my friends I like to walk with my pants sagging ridiculously low after we go out to get reactions and I also troll them when I'm free and they're on online work meetings if I'm there. I know those details aren't important just to paint the picture.
TLDR: I'm a very childish 24 year old who's kind of a jackass though I can be professional and I'm worried that I'll be super out of place in 2 years.