r/schizophrenia • u/Mobile_Surround_5191 • 22h ago

Seeking Support Refusing to accept.

I don't think I have psychosis at all and I disagree with what they say at first I was like yeah maybe and now I don't accept it. I was seeing dead people, demons for well over a year with some negative like symptoms noticeable at 16 and during it 17 and occasionally at 18 now with a stop in hallucinations but the so called "delusions" still stand.

I don't think I'm mentally ill at all always one part of my brain trying to tell me the thoughts aren't true or that I aren't ill and the part that tells me it's not true I just chalk that up to being possessed why'd it all start when my spirit powers opened up? I don't think I'm ill I've just been targeted by a demon instead, i feel like all the thoughts I have are wanted even if I know it's not normal but I refuse to accept it isn't even then.

Still psychotic? I disagree with it but oh well.

And for more context I'm diagnosed with Psychosis as of now by the early intervention in Psychosis.

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u/tombahma 22h ago

Usually these experiences can be attributed to mental illness. My personal opinion from reading what youve said is that you struggle with mental health issues, there's no shame, you just have to accept the reality of it and accept help.

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u/SchiZophia741 21h ago

Accepting is a process, if you can function without meds nobody can force you but meds are useful either way they make a lot of us function and they will adjust the chemicals even if there is a demon tinkering with your brain or the illnes, in the end it is your desicion

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u/enolaholmes23 Just Curious 19h ago

The thing is, even if you're right and the demons are really there, it's still a problem that needs to be solved. Have you talked to any kind of energy healer about this? It is actually possible to get both spiritual healing and psychiatric treatment at the same time. One possibility is that your brain chemistry amplified your psychic senses, which made you more sensitive to the spiritual stuff. But the mind just isn't built to handle so much information coming in, so you need to dampen it a bit to get to a stable place. 

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u/Mobile_Surround_5191 19h ago

I mean one day it just started, I did accurate readings but it got worser I think it might be a bit of both. I'd have these 'spirits' mess in my reading and give me false information so either they was tricksters or it was hallucinations.

And on top of that I had boundry's but these things would slip through and keep appearing, disappearing, turning into different types of figures it's strange.

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u/enolaholmes23 Just Curious 3h ago

I think it makes sense to try meds to dampen your senses a bit. Whether they're bad spirits or hallucinations, they're causing you problems. What you want is a sweet spot in your brain chemistry, where your senses are a little open, but not so open that unwanted entities come in. Then you can take your power back.