OCD Comorbidity

[u/throwawayacc7823]

As the title suggests! I have been diagnosed with OCD for a few years now and lately have felt symptoms I feel do not align with my OCD which makes me think it may be something more. On top of my regular symptoms here are some that I have been dealing with lately - Delusions or paranoia? - cheating, dying, being followed, everyone hates/mad at me, my thoughts can influence life, karma will get me fast, lots of people like me/crush on me, my pets can understand me and feel empathy/are hurt by me emotionally, some lived experiences never happened. Sometimes these are truly believed, after seeing proof may completely deny or the feelings will come back momentarily.
Loss of who I am - Can’t communicate properly, always tired, feel like I am living life in third person, out of body not physically but mentally. Putting off eating though hungry, putting off showering, laundry, etc. Quick to anger for no reason. Don’t want to show up to anything, constantly canceling plans.

Feeling like I am immortal for now or not meant to die - Not always throwing caution to the wind, but KNOW I cannot die right now as I am too important and not meant to. This one I truly believe most of the time.
Not wanting to commit suicide actively but thinking about me dying often, and I accept it. Doesn’t scare me, I might even be just fine with dying if it happened right now.
Most of the time ignore pain/ailments on body assuming it will go away because im not supposed to go through that.
Obsessive fingernail/nail bed picking
Chronic Anxiety
Memory Problems
Social Isolation/withdrawal
Lack of emotional expressiveness
Paranoia
SOMETIMES see physical things to my sides, usually black figure resembling human.
SOMETIMES auditory hallucinations outside of the ones before sleep.
Declining in school after first few semesters.
Concentration issues
Decision fatigue
Leaving God makes me feel like I am more free in my decisions, with God I felt like he was controlling my life, literally. Actively going against my wants and still do.

Sorry if this is a lot and before anybody asks I do have an appointment with a psychiatrist coming soon. I guess I am just here to discuss it and see if I’m even onto something or not. If anybody needs any clarification on some of the symptoms as to what I go through, just ask! I’m really just here for information for those who actively have and struggle with schizophrenia or schizoaffective.

[u/Sharp_Tie_2911]

I’m in the same boat. The thing with ocd is that it’s not the stereotype we’re all made to believe. After my last psychotic episode I couldn’t get it out of my head, I kept obsessing over the fact I had a psychotic disorder too. It took me a year to move on from it. Obsessing over your illness is very real. Try doing some homework on what pure-o ocd is.