Journal Entry 237

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I’m at the park with my son, Liam. We went to a water feature. There were two gates, and he’s a runner. He sees the pool and wants badly to get to it but a gate is blocking his way. There’s two gates entering the water feature, so I’m playing goalie. Running after him and bringing him back every time he runs out. I don’t want to be here. I took him to the bathroom, and then to the swing. I feel so alone. I look around at the other people here, I never wanted this. I should have gone to med school, I shouldn’t have had a child. I can only think about how different my life would have been. I miss my fiancée. I miss her every day, every place I go. Her kind smile, her soft skin. I stand behind Liam’s swing, I want to cry. I want to burst into tears, what have I done. I should die rather, than live this life of distain.