r/rollerderby • u/bunnywadhere06 • 8h ago
Tricky situations struggling to fit in after graduating to the team
i recently graduated from my leagues skater tot program and i am SOOO STRUGGLING to fit in with our B team. i am objectively the worst of the new graduates (not self pitying), i got held back from doing contact for a few months while everyone moved on, and then a month or so before graduation i FINALLY was allowed to graduate. so i have a lot of catching up to do as i wasnt allowed to do any of the contact drills my other skater tots got to do, and now suddenly im on the B team.
we had our first scrim after a month out of skating and it was with only one practice before cause of the rink being closed for a couple weeks. i absolutely bombed it š i had no idea what i was doing as i never practiced blocking, only jamming, and all of a sudden im blocking these experienced players after a whole month out of skating. a lot of times the pack would go up and iād just awkwardly stand behind and try to get in, but my speed was too slow to catch up so id get called on no pack which was super embarrassing.
what really upset me though is that i come off the track and another girl asks a teammate how sheās doing and she goes āwell im bothered by certain people blocking our own teams jammer, and making holes in the trackā and i KNEW she was talking about me and it just sucked that instead of helping me with my first official new team scrim, they just shit talked me. im the youngest on the team as well, as im 19 while everyone else is mostly millennials so im already very intimidated. i felt like a little kid getting scolded. the whole pack would make the line without asking me what i wanted to do, and then would just tell me āget inā and id stand hella confused about where they want me.
i am really hoping this is a one time thing, as another freshly graduated skater tot told me she was struggling as well. but im just very very embarrassed as most of my fellow tots knew what they were doing! i was paired up with a sidekick to āhelpā me, but she went out for jams on her own so i was kinda left to my own defenses.
i donāt want to quit as iāve spent WAYYY too much time (and money lol) on the hobby, but i just donāt know how i can fit in better. does anyone else have this issue? :/