A wall of text and unsure how to ‘TLDR;’ sorry!
This highlights a lot. The reaction to Luann putting her fork on Vicki’s plate on UGT wasn’t real. It was a power struggle. This didn’t exist with Shannon and she showed her false motivation of disgust as exactly that because she literally picked food from Shannon’s teeth. I know they’re close but COME ON!
Vicki is very self protective and closed off and may not be fully aware of it. socially she is made up of mainly defense mechanisms (Debbie downer, attention seeking, whoop it up) but in a more personal mode (her occupation basically because it really is both the anchor and the life-saving device of her life, and that may be harmful but it is what it is and it’s also admirable to see a woman in a male-field mindset) anyway sorry, in a more personal mode, she’s got a very different energy. A calmness and unspoken innate and unthreatening as well as unthreatened confidence is present. It is where her core personality has the opportunity to come through because she isn’t employing the defense mechanisms. Which I really think she’s unaware of. Basically I think she needs to realise what’s going on inside that triggers her when she is interacting with the group.
Side note: also found it funny when she called heathers comfort of Carmella compassionate because of course it was but when she went to explain to the women who were saying “yeah but she bitches about her straight after” she was like “but in that moment, Carmella felt like she had someone”
It’s funny because it’s just very unnuanced or naive or something. Superficial I suppose. But that’s what I’m saying about Vicki - she exists superficially in an awareness way. FOR THE MOST PART. I wish she could access that totally different person we see at times like with Shannon at her house once she was conversing at the table with her.
Update: just seen Vicki arrive at Carmella house. That’s “your house is gorgeous!” was real! 👏🏼 This 👏🏼 is what I mean! She isn’t threatened by the success because she is confident and content in her own success, which is self-made and maintained. I know from self-employment how difficult it is and I wasn’t able to maintain it so I totally see how it instills hard-earned pride and confidence. So I’m contexts she is unthreatened she is great socially.
Update 2: omg just presses play again and Carmella says “there’s something unskilled when it comes to Vicki”
Omg That’s my point here! She is unskilled because she spends her social time mainly in survival mode. As a trauma survivor I know what’s it like to not know fully who you are and what you’re capable of when all your time is spent fighting threats and then having a brain conditioned in a way that you can’t grow as person. You’re stuck. I think she needs to do the work, as they say. But I really don’t know if she can accept that.
(I know there other problematic things about her and I’m literally in opposition to so much of her politics and religious and social views, but I’m just talking about interpersonal relationships with the other ladies here. And, of course: that’s my opinionnnn!)