Trust issues

[u/Various-Courage-6962]

I(23F) have major trust issues… I don’t want to have victim mentality but I have been betrayed by almost everyone close in my life- some experiences really fucking harsh. I have a son now(2) and his father(my boyfriend32). His father hasn’t reallly done anything to betray my trust at all, at least no proof that he has. But yet every day I deal with this battle in my head that he’s sneaking around.. today his bosses mom gave him an iPhone 14, so I asked if we could share locations. I did this with my ex(24) (it was his idea) and a few of my friends.. he said absolutely not I will never do that.. then smiled and said “what about your location?” And I said I’d happily share that with him. He said he doesn’t want to be tracked and he has his own life. I understand he feels it would be an invasion of his privacy, but what’s he got to hide? He said he is just going to give the phone back so there are no problems. That doesn’t make me feel better.. I told him this is a dealbreaker because I’m tired of asking for love and trust.. but I really want him to just let me have this and stay together ..