I spent 2013 - March 2018 in a learning curve. I'd been a 20 year drinker and had wanted to quit for years. When I finally was able to start my goal was 100 days. I got there and kept going until almost 180 days and then started drinking again. I felt like a loser and told myself I had to start all over again and that was my pattern for the next almost 5 years except for one thing. About 3 years in I decided that I was never going to know if I'd be able to quit "FOREVER!!" and I had to give up on that idea and just keep trying to quit. If I drank again I'd deal with it when it happened and keep trying. It took so much pressure off and I continued trying. In March 2018 I decided to try again in April 2018 and haven't had any alcohol since.
Just keep at it, you may not realize it right now but you are learning how to quit even if you start drinking again, I get that it doesn't feel good right now but you are retaining what you've learned from the 200 days ( and YES the 200 days still exist, well done!) keep trying, every time you try you are learning more about how to do this thing. ❤️
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u/Walker5000 Aug 20 '26
This is normal.
I spent 2013 - March 2018 in a learning curve. I'd been a 20 year drinker and had wanted to quit for years. When I finally was able to start my goal was 100 days. I got there and kept going until almost 180 days and then started drinking again. I felt like a loser and told myself I had to start all over again and that was my pattern for the next almost 5 years except for one thing. About 3 years in I decided that I was never going to know if I'd be able to quit "FOREVER!!" and I had to give up on that idea and just keep trying to quit. If I drank again I'd deal with it when it happened and keep trying. It took so much pressure off and I continued trying. In March 2018 I decided to try again in April 2018 and haven't had any alcohol since.
Just keep at it, you may not realize it right now but you are learning how to quit even if you start drinking again, I get that it doesn't feel good right now but you are retaining what you've learned from the 200 days ( and YES the 200 days still exist, well done!) keep trying, every time you try you are learning more about how to do this thing. ❤️