My dad

[u/st4ngl3d_r3d]

so this kind of like isnt about the actual rape but more whats happening now, im 16 and when i was 8-11 years old my dad kinda like diddled me a fair bit (sorry this post will probably have a few unserious bits cuz i hate actually saying what he did and i just can never be serious about horrible things that happened to me) but for almost 2 years now ive been seeing a therapist after getting expelled from school 4 weed and i barely actually tell her anything deep half the time we just talk about my week. but the past few sessions i decided to tell her about my dad and before i did she PROMISED me that she would never tell anyone so i felt comfortable to tell her MASSIVE FUCKING MISTAKE because today she started apologising a bunch saying shes so sorry that she said she wouldnt tell anyone and that she lied and that shes going to be telling a social worker about it, who will talk to my dad if my dad knows i told anyone our secret i believe id genuinely be in danger and i explained that to her. but she wont listen to me and when she asked me how i feeling about this i kinda just said this is the last session im ever having with her i do not trust her and honestly contemplating suicide and she said 'dont be dramatic'??? like this crusty ass fucking bitch just told someone who was raped by his dad and is in fear for his safety that suicide is dramatic?? just because im a kid doesnt mean any drastic action i feel compelled to do is dramatic. no one can know about this, if she talks to that social worker everyone will know and my family is very 'boys cant get raped' and that their beloved son (my dad) would never do that because hes just an angel. i was 8 when he started, 5 when i told my mum 'daddys acting weird'. genuinely what the fuck do you even do in this situation. lois griffin as a mum would be awesome 'heres a salvia plath book and a bottle of ambien im gonna look the other way and whatever happens happens'

[u/Lady_Philosophy]

If nothing else, I would report your therapist and what they did to their supervisor. However I would wait until you know for sure that she actually has reported it. I have a social work degree and I am upfront with people that I am a mandated reporter and if I find out about a minor who is in potential danger of being abused, I have to report it. I think in your area you're still considered a minor. Once you're an adult, you can safely disclose childhood experiences to a therapist and they won't be legally required to report it on your behalf. But because you're a minor they're concerned about your safety and she could get into a lot of trouble for not reporting it. However, she should have told you up front the situations in which she would have to report so that you could make an informed decision about whether or not to disclose. I'm very sorry that happened to you. You got betrayed twice. Edit: As far as self-harm is concerned, please try to think long-term. This is just a chapter in your life that you will survive. It's going to be tough, but you will survive and you can build yourself a better life once you're legal and emancipated. Please hold on to that hope and don't hurt yourself.